im back laa[:
watched 1408 at vivo. its a smart plot bt the arrangements of scenes and pace were different eg too long an intro and too short the action. should hv long action tho.
went back to the shorts shop agn to buy the same design. turned out the black one ive bought the other day was slightly smaller than the other one so had to rebuy. bought white one also[:
they're so nice. they sell another design in pink too. i wanna get it next time[:
very happy in sch today because smone was so kindhearted to donate packets of sweets to us. its just so yummy. there were two that were disgusting tho. one was the honey one that had hints of ginger or ginseng, the other was the redbean milk sweet. dinesh and nigel had a total change of expressions aft eating it. dinesh looked like he could cry and nigel just started to say it tastes like shit. in the end i tried[:
haaaa. it tastes like hw a redbean should taste like, bt redbean isnt what we'll like[:
fun tho. i managed to finish the entire sweet leh[:
bla was like helping me trade my redbean and honey sweets with dinesh and the rest were just koping his sweets. in the end, he was only left with a packet of gross sweets. haaaa. everyone donated their redbean and honey sweets until a box was filled. win alr lo[:
the concert wasnt really nice bt faris was in it. wah, can do magic plus solo dance for a part. nt bad ahh[:
we ended earlier than expected laa. had fun overall[:
they didnt buy mrs raj's card! made one last min with all i could. at least i did my best and she likes the card[:
alrights. back to surfing[:
had sm papers today and i didnt really study much ss tho. its great luck that pragmatism which was the one i was best at came out[:
did the proper explaination and stuffs think i was doing great[:
tagged along to the center for the prelim results. a2 wor. thats great[:
i seriously doubt if im an a2 standard. bt im serious abt trying hard laa. hw much more time do we really hv?
nt really much huh.
while waiting i ate a green jelly. greeen[:
then we went to mustafa. haaa there's so big and cute. so many funny things[:
i love you la[: hahaaaa nw that everybody knows bt nvm.
i just feel that i'd love you more through this because you are the one who's there for me. thanks.
going to settle down to big business doing work soon. im alr in the mood.
felt really bad and anxious that i didnt study much for ss so this isnt going to repeat itself anymore.
it was that bad that i only knew good governance and only ard 25% of it. hahaaaa. bt its okay. ppl like me hv great luck[:
good ppl hv great luck[:
stupidly had bad cramps during morning assembly bt it went away just before the paper so it didnt bother much.
alrights im going back to study or do smthing more useful than to navigate this boring virtual world.
there are sm things in reality worth keeping and being happy abt and that's a smile[:
it doesnt really matter whose bt they're all so sweet. i cant describe hw happy one brings me. hahaaaa. it just makes me really happy.
there are ppl whom you can nv please because they just gt their own problems bt there are others who'll return our sincere treatment[:
i gt to know this girl frm 2t recently and she's really nice laa although we barely talked.
maybe you'll think they are normal tech leh. bt actually they're probably tons better than you.
i'd know of ppl who'll despise them or smth because they aint express. dont judge.
food for thought. alrights, bye.
alrights. happy 16th[:
finally no restrictions to nc16 movies anymore.
today is a perfect day to blog because i doubt i will be active online near future.
mum gave me my birthday money, which meant more money. haa. its like i bought two shorts today and quite sm accesories.
dead silence was great with the twists and good effects. must watch[:
vivo is boring. haa. bt there's you.
the kids were like superman is here because of your shirt. haa cute.
bought random stuffs frm daiso too. and more butterfly clips[:
love love love shopping. haaa bt tmr is a brand new day. gt to study alr laaa. i'd promise i'll study okays.
went for dinner bt the company was pathatic.
sorry for being late for 5mins bt doesnt mean in exchange you could be mean or rude whats. thats childish.
unapologetically mean jecting comments only show your insincerity lo. look, im nt begging you to be here.
you didnt even wanna treat me like a one dollar icecream?
its nt the money bt the effort.
you didnt even want to let me order what i want and its like a mere 3$ more for one dish would only mean another 50c more for each person.
comeon, its only 50c. you aint that poor right. my parents would hv made better company and they were be least boring than you. and they would hv ordered more food.
where's the courtesy? you guys didnt even talk to me.
since you are so calculative, i wondered i should hv even shared my fries with you since i paid for them. every cent of money is mine what, why should you touch them.
there are ppl who stayed up to 12 just to wish me a happy birthday on the spot and you aint even one of them.
alrights, nvm then.
big thanks for the exact 12mn msgs, online comments and of course presents (if any)[:
they were sweet.
the msgs do mean alot although im sorry i couldnt reply on the spot since i was sleeping like a pigg. haaa.
alrights. tmr is really a new day. i wanna study hard[:
i dont think judging frm the standard of work i hv nw i'd be able to get a 9, bt under 13 is good enough. i'll try okays. shall go offs. byes[:
i went out today. had so much fun despite it was alittle crowded on a sat ahh.
bought loads and loads of new clothes.
TADA!=D
it was emaths ssp in the morning. thanks jiaying for the necklace. its so pretty. thankyou catherine for the notebook=D
haaa. thanks bla for the tees=D
yayy. happiness=D
tmr there's dead silence and our dinner. yaaayeeee. its alr 9plus. haa. will sleep soon i guess. byes. the emaths papers can wait=D
im back. had bad mood for the whole day.
i figured out i probably hv a bad attitude prob or just my personality clashes with everyone elses', esp the smart asses[:
its better nw though, after buying a new bag. haa. speak abt retail therapy.
dislike sch leh[:
why wouldnt you when the ppl ard are performing so well and you're like stagnant. im so wasted. haaa.
alrights. a couple of days and i'll be 16. guess its time to be more mature i suppose. bt dont expect too much frm me. i hate pressure[:
my dad has gt a new white car. it feels great getting off it in the morning[:
okies, byes.
it started to rain when i reached. same busstop, same long route back, bt this time it felt so much better. you make me smile[:
alrights, bye. i guess we hv too much to do and nothing gets done eventually.
it just started to rain, bt ive made my way back[:
took the longer way these couple of days. cant deny its nice.
walked the long stretch of road next to the barely used roads, listened to bits of the rain coming down. it was a gorgeous feeling, although i was alone.
thought of you then. hvnt been saying to you, bt i love you.
who will be that dumb to do that to show. haa. you know what you did.
i think i had been too mean to you. plus i thought you should be the one feeling 10times insecure rather than me.
i dont really know what to say, bt i love you.
thanks, although you will say i dont hv to say this.
school has been boring. nothing much though. feeling better these days. the papers are still there piling up because we cant do. i cant do emaths and thats a blow. even had to resort looking into the sec3 txtbk for more info. guess thats it. lets nature take its course i guess. will study eventually. birthday is next wk[:
looking forward. plus, ive gt a fat wallet. ahhh.
we'll hv fun. guess thats why im so slack nw.
haaaa. okies, shall do sm work nw. bye.
I NEED YOU-LEANN RIMES
I don't need a lot of things,
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring,
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason,
You're my only truth
[chorus]
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage
And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far
yay, we're back[:
thanks for listening to me agn bla.
my brother's using my opera and that's disgusting. keep your hands of my things pls[:
hahaaaaa. ive done with the seventeen mag for this mnth. anyone wants it?
there's our leaving-school testimonial to be written and more papers. bye.
the song big girls don't cry by fergie is sweet. love the tune[:
la,da,da,da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your hometown
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
Be with myself in center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their
blanket
But I've gotta move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry,
Don't cry,
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown,full
grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending do they
And I for see the dark ahead if I stay
Like a little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my
valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'cause I wanna hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret
worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
everything is fine nw, great.
mum talked to me yest night and we both poured things out. so nw my cup of woe is only 1% filled.
feels so much better pouring the 99% out[:
free like a bird. haaaa. and that one percent is rv.
thanks bla for listening to me talks. sm ppl were lame to the extent to snap pics. haaa[:
chem spa was okay leh. thought it was going to be damn hard or smthing since i didnt manage to study so much.
bt for such a paper, you'd probably dont need to study. haa. yeah, that easy[:
wrote vol of gas collected for 30s, which i changed to time taken to collect 40cm3 of gas which was right. i think there wouldnt be any prob.
lessons were pretty slack since we only had 2 lessons aft recess and those before were also rather slack. spa started 12plus and ended one plus.
aft that was our lunch alr. then the eng oral. mrs raj made me delighted by saying my pic convo and convos were good[:
so it sort of made me feel so much better. had finally a proper meal in wks. seems like ive been eating too much junk eg. pocky, apples that i forgot hw a plate of rice looks like and a proper meal feels like.
it was yummy[:
made the examiner laugh by saying that during a competition, i would feel nervous just like nw. haa. i hope i do well, although the reading part was really sucky.
we just need sm warming up[:
alrights. ew and mrs koh dumped us 2 sets of papers to do today so bye.
smthing happened today la. bla said i hv been moody for the past few days. this post is going to sound bad, so get off if you aint interested. i feel bad, so it sounds bad. i alr had enough keeping them all in. seriously i hv been wondering if there's a day i disappear, is there going to be smbody replacing me and i'll just be forgotten. haa. i just feel like staying at hm, out of life's contrictions. maybe i just need a little venting. you cant expect me to be your 24/7 sunflower. its disgusting.
then when i smile, you say why you like to smile to much.
when i feel sad, you only know hw to tell me to stop being sad.
so frankly what do you want me to do?
and its like there were things that sounded more horrible that were better off kept in my heart than to travel to your ears. i gt really disgusted then. maybe still a little nw while thinking abt it though its okay nw. okay, nt still a little nw bt still very. the things you did seem to show that you liked her more. even if there's supposed to be all the crap trust, it doesnt matter if there's no security. action speaks louder than words. there's no need to say it so many times. its like if there's security, go ahead talk to sm 500 prettier girls and i wouldnt flinch abit. there's nothing gt to do with trust or nt. plus, perhaps im just plain invisible. thanks ah, for doing it in my face smmore. damnit, you cant imagine hw insulted i felt. its like am i blind? if you think that what you did wasnt wrong, i wouldnt object to what you're doing really. you could continue. but seriously, if you can do it, i can do it too. hahahaaaaaa. you talk to girls in what ways i dont like, i can just do the same to other guys. lalaaaaaaaaa. haaaaaa[:
and its like you can call her me, hw am i supposed to know you didnt ask the wrong person to be with. maybe you just mistook us both for each other. haha. then dont waste my time laa.
even if there's anything wrong with me and you aint willing to accept, i thought we could just end here. bt since its okay nw, its okay then. i just dont really want similar stuffs to happen agn. neither do i want you to think im with u for whats, for smbody to pay for my things?
okay im quite done with the ranting. hope tmr's better. there's o lvl eng oral and chem spa waiting. fuck. if screwing my day is all you can do, i'd rather nt see you.
went to watch secret with zy just(:
thanks for sponsering half, napok(:
its nice laa, bt didnt like transporting parts because they werent artistically done. alrights, bye.
just finished the series, to catch the uncatchables, and it was uber sad when he died.
good guys shouldnt die :(
i doubt he would die if he didnt go run to catch that thief. and he left the greatest bunch of friends, his new wife and his mum just like that.
ETERNAL FLAME-THE BANGLESClose your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?
I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch when you are sleeping, you belong to me
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?
Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling
eh this is actually kinda hard to start, bt i went out with smone special yest(:
it was national day yea. so happy birthday singapore, although frankly i dont really care. haa. this is probably the first year that i cannot be bothered as the publicity is a huge turnoff. dont blame me for being unpatriotic because hw much we love our country isnt supposed to be judged by hw loud we sing the anthem. okay back to the main point.
woke up in the morning relatively early. lazed ard in bed(:
the weather's so fine in the morning. watched abit of the drama series before leaving. then gt dressed and packed the room a little to prevent my mum frm saying anything. wrote a note for her too to let her know what i was going to do. at least by being more open in what we do is going to help in building our trust. told her who i was going out with too. so everything was a-okay.
because of the packing up, reached 20mins late. sorry love, thanks for being understanding and willing to wait. gt water frm the nearby ntuc. serangoon garden seems like a nice place to stay at. haa.
then settled down at macs to study. did eng work and sm random here-and-theres. was supposed to be taught rv, bt seems like its always slipping off my mind. i guess i really dont want to do it. haa. its a superb mood spoiler.
ate nuggets because that smbody bought it for me. damn, i'll only get fatter if not rounder and more like bla. haa(:
then went to tpy for a walk. nothing much there though, bt there's you.
saw a special couch that cost at least a thousand. every little kid coming by saw it and they liked it as much as i did(:
thanks for saying you're going to buy that chair for me in the future and you're going to work very hard for all these.
there's not going to be any you or me because its going to be just us(:
what an unexpected surprise. haaa.
and i totally refused to leave the chair. it was really nice.
then stayed ard there for awhile before we took the bus back.
thanks for the pooh mug and love bunny(:
next time, listen to me and dont spend so much laa.
had a good sleep. frankly, it felt weird at first. need sm time to adjust. haa. bt the convo we had yest night was sweet.
woke up today and went out with mum. hvnt talked that much to her in awhile until today although it still wasnt much. she bought me a green spag(:
and i helped her to get her sk2 stuffs frm the counter. yeps. we sort of rushed back hm for her appointment bt it turned out that she chose mahjong over haircut. abit lame ah(:
my fave bun was dinner. so much for nw. byes.
x-country today(:
i ran like siao, thinking that i might actually hv a chance of being top lo.
in the end, just a few positions away.
and i still stupidly went to the post there to report thinking that i will get tags. ha.
then the boring talks and stuffs by the hweepin. she didnt even leave her dearest shelter to be with us can. then still anyhow scold ppl.
the world is never always fair. sm fucks always get their way. i cant wait for the day she leaves her post. it'll come(:
the helpers didnt do a thing lah, still gt free foods.
had to wake up like super early. met lau first. kinda scary to walk to the other busstop when it was so dark and early.
thankfully lau was on the other side of the road so yea. ha. everyone was so tired. ate egg mcmuffin today. yummy.
lau gave a bad suggestion of adding salt. damnit. like so salty. ha.
actually i ate more fatty foods today-.-
then we took bus to the park. nice seeing you today, hvnt talked to you in a long time alr. wished i had such a chance.
and you really shouldnt degrade yourself this much.
then reached the park in awhile. then walked in and stuffs.
the toilet was super cute. it was orange and made of plastic. used it straight when i reached. felt weird doing business in the middle of the field(:
ha. then there was this turning thing there near the tap and we thought it was supposed to be turned to get the water. in actual fact, you just hv to step on something.
same for the flush.
nothing much there. the run was fun though. initially was racing catherine-.-
bt obviously, i couldnt catch up aft smtime and lost her. met lau in the mid so we ran together.
i ran so fast lo, still cant believe nv top. zzzzz.
and there were all the bugs there while we sat on the field. saw a spider. gross(:
then we did walk through these swarms of fruit flies. grosser(:
ha. new experiences.
aft the event ended, went with bra to get vids. rented shutter and art of the devil part one. they happened to be thai flicks.
shutter was nice, bt the ghost wasnt really scary la.
art of the devil had rather nice scenes, yet with confusing plot. still dont really get it nw(: nvm then.
then we went to the hougang fest market together. there was fairprice xtra(: loads of nice stuffs to see.
so much for today i guess(:
byes.
im back(:
gt a haircut le. its just ave bt hair will grow back(:
i can pin my fringe to avoid looking at the likes of it.
went to watch alone today. wah, very diu lian. actually nt so scary one, bt dont know why so scared. haa.
probably because i hadnt been watching horror for so long.
i think they did a good job of the sounds and the lights. eeeee. the part with the car squashing the dog was sad :/
and the part showing the ghost with mouth wide open was shocking. overall nt bad(:
plus, there were twists in the plot to keep us locked to the show.
ppl saw us on our way there and were like omg that kinda thing. it was seriously no big deal(:
you dont really need a mirror to try see us behind you. haaa.
and poser, stop posing lah. waste my time to delete your tags. and pls, you think i cant differentiate meh. dy/dx what.
no life kia(:
walked ard giant. <3
so much to see. had sushi. yummy.
koped chicken cultet. awesome(:
candy empire was cute. bought mini wine gums. sweet.
had pocky during the show. food<3
saw ahlian and ahbeng monsters there(: they were like gross. haa. they were more afraid of us seeing them than us being seen by them so they left when we went into the shop.
we also nt so boliao to spread that they both gt poor taste(:
sigh. this world is pathatic and boring and disgusting generally. didnt stay for long actually. shall go for a longer next time.
its the weekends alr. going to rot looking at textbooks and trying real hard to fig relative velocity. the qns were just 2/5 on the hardness level for rv, bt i couldnt even do. fuck.
need to relearn all of them alr laa. i wished slacking was tested in o lvls or vainity. i would be a pro(:
i hate school. hahaha. getting sick of it alr. so many prelims papers to work on lo. zzz.
i go to sch with a smile and it usually turns into a frown when i encounter the numerous probs i cant solve or rv. it sucks when you're so much lagging behind.
kitty still isnt ard. there are 3 possiblities.
one: kitty died! -nt really possible as kitty is so nice.
two: kitty was brought hm by the first person who gave it the bell on a strap. -kitty must be so happy nw because that would be a nice person.
three: kitty went to sm other place :(
so sad. i miss it.
anyway so much for today. thanks for turning that possible frown into a smile. you do everytime unknowingly(:
thanks.
what a boring and lazy afternoon. didnt see kitty today either.
if only it knew i was missing it.
new
work. did it in 2hours using the bear idea(:
i'd hope you like it. alrights i shall be doing smthing better. byes.
Labels: work
here's an update of the past few days.
went to wrap liqun's present yest and i drew a card for her(:
sll is cute. ha. -blinks-(:
little kitty crossed paths with me yest when i was under my blk. it was so cute(:
abt 15cm tiny. cuteness. so i spent nearly an hour with it.
kitties are usually shy, bt this wasnt.
was a coincidence that farris came back and joined me. the kitty was uber cute, bt refused to eat the biscuits i offered.
its like-_- why dont kitties eat biscuits or breads.
it kept following me though. it ran with me(:
imagine kitties running on a field with golden sunlight. ahh, im in love.
bt this darling wasnt ard today. sads. if only i could bring you hm.
then came up to do things. barely did much though. chose to sleep instead(:
nothing much for monday. skipped lunch break to slack ard in cls, hoping could get the paper earlier and do.
in the end waited for nothing because we were allowed to bring the timed prac back. ha(:
had eng timed prac today. borings(:
specially ordered an ice blended green tea that wasnt on the menu. its nice though and nt so artificial.
sec 1s are disgusting. lalalaaaaa.
the guys are just acting noisy and dumb, while the girls are just plain erm unwise. yeah. and 1e3 is just next to us.
its uber disgusting when you're trying to do work at where im sitting and all they do is to yell and scream like its a zoo.
no, its nt a zoo. its a botanical gardens with all the plants and monkeys frm the next cls.
smday i might nt be able to take it and go next door to scream at them. i wonder what kind of teachers they are when they cant even control them(:
dumb teachers i guess.
at last, we hv gt a new vp. she looks like an auntie lo.
and she seems so foreign to us and what we do. at least choose smone frm our sch whats(:
friskbee game was great.
yeps, so much for nw. byes(:
