RANG SHI JIAN KAI KOU-Z CHEN.
im damn sick. totally screwed up today. ought to stay at hm.
my nose hurts frm all the sneezing and everything& it feels bad.
they said i looked as if i was crying bt obviously nt. haha.
fuck im sneezing as im typing this. it doesnt even let me off for a min. if im nt alright tmr i guess i wouldnt be there.
i wanna go to sch though. sigh.
im hungry :/
guess today is the only time i would come back hm straight aft sch because im toooo sick.
i hv sore throat, flu and everything else.
i wished i could be you for just a min and i wonder hw you felt when you saw me this way.
YUE GUI NU SHEN-SHE.
i feel sick lah. flu's quite gone for the day and instead i had a stomachache and i am going to get a cough/sore throat soon.
nw flu's coming back agn. zzzz.
my mind's really blank and i dont wanna recall the day.
i'll just say what i can rmb then.
mood wasnt exactly gd in the morning. just a sentence frm someone gt me that way.
i guess you really hv to reflect on what you hv done before you even judge.
why put the blame on me just because you had to find someone to blame in the first place.
why try to find some shit with me when i aint provoking you or what.
oh yes, you suck =)
and its true i dont listen to suckers.
some ppl werent so bad aft all, ive realised.
sometimes others know what you are doing, what you say& what u think. there are just too many pairs of eyes ard.
it'll be gd if we'll all just keep to our own business.
lessons were as usual. super alert aft watching that forensic show early in the morning-_-
i might just be too addicted.
aft sch was hcl ssp. those who failed that particular assignment had to stay back. getting just 8/25 for that entitled me to her special tution-_-
i guess ive improved with a higher percentage aft getting 8/20 for this other quiz she gave us. still as pathatic. i studied leh.
i was 25mins late. tell the sch to release us earlier for our lunch lah=)
then i waited for zy aft cldds ended. lijun was sick lah. and she kept crying.
felt so sorry for her.
co ended so late lo. yawns.
hohoho. i go and sleep liao lah.
i live in my own lies and i soar in my own sky.
QING TIAN-JAY.
im back(:
i still hv flu. really sian lo.
i guess some ppl just cant stop missing me. hahaha.
there's lessons today bt hist was really funny with the vids.
hitler looks funny. only nw i'd realise nt only we think so.
today there wasnt spotcheck lah. bt whatever. i see it coming soon. maybe tmr?
had eng paper aft sch. i think im going to score=)
i love writing expositions.
wanted to slack ard with zy at central bt my mum called and i was supposed to fetch my brother off frm scouts.
its like we went into his sch so easily and saw him digging his nose in the cls lo.
fucking funny lah. i was like i really dont hv face to say you are my brother.
the kids looked at us like we were aliens. cute lo.
i love my mother-- napok=D
i love my father-- brala=D
haha what a couple-__-
they were openly intimate leh.
had so much fun lah. we all didnt go for pe. then were like taking cock there.
nigel was really sick. he kept saying it was cold.
take care yea, although u aint going to see this =)
i made a pact with my brother. he aint going to tell on my using comp nw and i will kp mum abt him playing ps2.
we gt back this assignment today and i gt pathatic marks. kyn too. we were supposed to write 10times the correct word for each mistake leh.
yawns. at least ive done it quickly. bcos of this there's chi tution tmr lah. erm, do you really think i need chi tution? -_-
bt she'll retest the entire thingy so i guess i'll study ltr. im so guai 0:]
and i'll watch the vcds. hv been thinking of it all day<3
i cant tahan alr. i loveeeee food.
vitagen peach is my new addiction<3
i love pratas<3
i love fillet-o-fish& hashbrows<3
oh i think i hv alot of work to do or else u will see me turning bala size :/
YI QIAN BIAN WO AI NI-YI NENG JING.
im back, finally. hv been sneezing so much.
who's missing me so bad?(:
i slept at ard 12mn yesterday and guess what i actually slept till 12noon today. i love sleeping(:
then aft waking up i went to watch vcds. its this series abt forensic and its really nice. watched 6eps in a go while doing hw.
finished my hw lo(:
then we went to tpy to see clothes. actually nth much there. kinda wasted my time ):
walked so much too. my legs need rest.
i slept without the fan bt i wonder what made me sneeze every 2mins. i sneezed till i wanted to cry lo.
there's sch tmr& im going to be guai and nt bring my hp.
i
loveeeeeee mrs koh and her -sad funeral expression- sooo much.
okay. back to msn convos.
PERFECT-SIMPLE PLAN.
i misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
TIAN HUI-SHE.
im just back. i love food :]
hahaha.
woke up at 8 today just to be in time to meet dl and pass him the ijc tickets. i wanted to go to the funfair with kaiying bt cant make it because of the full day cls com training on 10th.
see, i hate it.
then i waited and waited for catherine and the rest to appear outside cheers where we said we would meet.
fuck. they didnt come. so i waited for 30mins until i gave up.
cheers sell super loads of nice chocs. vday is coming yea? :]
bt noone wants to spend it with me.
anyone interested? hahaha.
will buy chocs for the ppl i love :]
so i went to amk central for breakfast thinking it would be alone bt i saw a grp of ppl frm our cls lah.
liqun and chujun were there with yuenchi and bala. bala went with me to mac. then over there we were talking abt hw to keep the girly.
yawns. he's really noob. hahaha.
had fillet-o-fish student meal. niceeeeeeee.
their hashbrow damn damn nice. its nt overly fried like the other chains& amk's mac hv maccafe too. love maccafe's mango smoothie.
aft that i hv to go back lo. saw catherine and the rest there ard 1140 and its like when she saw me she passed me the tin and went to slack.
i pass the slacking bug ard=D
went to bugis with parents aft that and its like super super crowded at bugis street till i felt i was dying.
saw a pair of nice shoes that werent meant to be mine. too bad i guess.
bought a black top=D
i love black. haha.
im tired lah. walked so much today.
yawnnnnns.
i misssssss youuuuuuuuuu.
AI ZAI AI NI-VIC CHOU.
im clearly bored. there was double amaths today and it must hv been a curse. i dont like her. she makes me sleeeepy. yawns.
ive made another new friend-_-
hmm. aft amaths quite a num of us were in the girls toilet& were talking abt mrs koh. funnnyyyy :]
i think im just tired. too lazy to think lo.
i need sleeeeep.
i dont wanna blooogggggg.
haha byebye.
consider it fast. in a short span of 1 hr ive made 2 new friends& dropped my hp 3times.
ive done work& im already a little tired nw. just checking who's online :]
YI QIAN BIAN WO AI NI-YI NENG JING.
shuo yi qian bian wo ai ni ye bu gou.im back. guess lifes filled with ups and downs bt its impt we remain happy :]
aft today's morning assembly i did smth funny.
i almost fell down and i touched lena's erm there because i needed to hold something. use your fertile imagination here pls. and i was really super embarassed.
then she was like why are u molesting me. hahaha. whoops. really didnt mean it lah-_-
during eng i was like showing ppl my commonwealth essay. it took me less than 3hrs yesterday but it seemed to turn out nicely.
they all said it was nt bad leh=D
bala said he could see frm the essay that i hv gd jecting skills. hahaha.
recess and everything was nice lo. aft recess would be amaths and noone really wanted to have double amaths. its really gross.
so a grp of us were outside the class looking at the rain& talking abt mrs koh. lena imitates her expression nicely. fucking funny.
wished time would pass quickly. at least we learnt smth new today.
ive just realised that i dont hv my geog hw with me and i will hv to meet zy for dinner ltr to ask her to get it for me :(
i dont understand.
I AM WHO I AM-GUANG LIANG.
im back. decided to blog before i go do my stuffs.
quite tired today lo. i wanna slp more=D
hv commonwealth essay to be in by tmr. so that's what i'll complete ltr. yawns. the thought of it makes me sleepy.
the thought of eng makes me sleepy. hahaha.
today jiang laoshi was super super mad at our cls cos noone did the hw.
yups. i wonder isit too much on our part.
something happened during recess lo. its like i was with lena at her table and i said i'd probably nt mind pouring her soya bean drink into her food which she didnt let me.
then i went to pour my ribina into her food which made her very very mad. i really thought it was funny lo. bt i guess this time i overshot the limits :(
nothing helped but saying i'll treat her the food tmr was our deal. i wonder why she's so mad over this food thingy. its just food-_-
bt sorry anyway. i was like still laughing aft it happened lah. and zy was like i really wonder why i know you.
she knew i didnt mean it lo. guess she was the only one who would think so lo.
i like super sweet drinks when im in gd mood, like today :]
hmm. before eng lesson, mr chan walked by 4e4=D
heeeee issssss soooooo cuuteeee. hahaha.
eng discussion was in bala's grp. its like such a coincidence lah.
speaking of bala, i hope he makes some progress today lo :]
eng timed prac was nice. at least i managed to do it in like 30mins although it wasnt my intention to complete it that fast.
4e5 is nice=D
they talk alot cock that's funny and they uncovered yuchao's girlfriend.
yuchao has a girlfriend leh. plus its nanyang girls de.
then they were like asking him if he's sure its nt a fragment of his imagination.
fucking funny.
okayyyyy i guess i shall go to bathe :]
PERFECT-SIMPLE PLAN.
its 830 alr. reached hm at 730 or so lo.
started the morning super nicely. mood was super gd. then i talked too much cock. zy is probably the only one who can stand me.
bt again, i can barely rmb what ive said and done lah. at least its funny =)
got the shit secretary duty to do lah. i nv said i wanted it lo. yawns.
saw serene like 500 times today. blame it on sheer luck lah. im like so lucky. HAHA.
she was ard our block area and i was busy trying to shun her. oh yes im that group who doesnt hv dignity and shun her because i dont want her to cut/pin my hair.
im so shallow ah.
and i hvnt been caught for the 2nd time yet :]
its really no big deal lah. its just fringe what, why need be so short-_-
i dont understand their mentality. sorry im nt that old yet.
mushroom tan hweepin and fuckface ow looks like shit. i'd nv wanna look like them :]
amaths peer tutoring was aft sch lah. bala sucks as my tutor. its like he did the work so fucking slow can. bt i kept distracting him more with the tamil girl, my dasao.
he kept saying he cant wait for tmr's tamil cls. im expecting a dasao by end of june bt im also expecting him failing his tamil since he keeps looking at her during the lessons.
then i gave up and went to e5 to find my zy. she finished her work like damn long ago and others were like copying hers lah.
my zy is so smart :] HAHA.
i also copied those i didnt know hw to do.
gideon was super funny. he kept singing the qian li zhi wai by jay and fei yu qing. he sung to me too. and he will do that stupid action. its really really funny.
and he only knows the 1st line of the chorus. its like so cute lah=D
i dont know why ppl enjoy singing to me. hahaha.
aft amaths shit i was hving cldds. quite fun actually and she released us super early.
barely went for an hr's worth lo.
had to wait for my czy alone and was happily enjoying some moments of quietness. i really missed the past and i wished time would stopped right at the happy moments.
ppl only know hw to cherish when they've lost it. its just too bad :/
the song dong jie by jj kept repeating in my mind and it wouldnt go away.
thoughts were interupted by some girly girls.
eew. they were so gross lah. identity nt shown to protect these ppl, no offence -_-
a was trying to tell b something happening in her life. she seems so exited to say bt she decides nt to say and asked b to guess randomly.
then b tried guessing and it didnt work. then b anyhow say some rship related shit.
a was like i dont know im confused lah blah blah& its driving me mad (seemingly happy).
*ps, if its driving u crazy, would u be happy?-_-
b went, tell me lah and became very curious. a was still reluctant to tell.
then b went chasing a ard.
kao, they damn noisy lah. plus its like if its going to be personal, still say until that loud.
i could hear it like 10mtrs away lo even when i aint interested to know the shit in ur life.
and if u wanna say smth, get it straight to the point lo.
its like "oh i want say leh. oh ive decided nt to say lah. heehee." kinda thing. gross.
nvm. its none of my business how these girly girls wanna act anyway. im glad im nt that type :]
when co ended, jiang laoshi came to talk to zy and she was like trying to shun the teacher she doesnt like. fucking funny.
bt of course she couldnt make it. she talked to her for awhile over the issue.
we always would see jiang laoshi at the interchange as usual we saw her today bt zy was glad she didnt come over for more.
okay. i guess its time for rest=D
and i really need to say this.
i love love love some ppl i hv in my life :]
im sorry i cant be perfect.
PERFECT-SIMPLE PLAN.
today is nice. mood has been gd for i dont know what reasons =)
i guess its nice to be nice. haha.
its nice to be liked for who i am.
someone said im pretty leh=D
helped the cls to carry the newspapers this morning and i didnt know there are ppl who actually noticed it was me who did it.
someone thanked me and another said someone else ought to hv done it since i was a girl. at least its appreciated right.
skipped pe since i was hving a little stomachache and flu. like all of a sudden before pe lo. my rib area hurt too :/
then zy wasnt ard for recess. she was hving some counseling session for being "defiant" to jiang lao shi. so yea. was alone.
at least it didnt remain a big prob for her case when mr ng helped her. or else she'll be next to do public apology.
dont teachers know students hv bad days/moods too. sometimes it is really reasonable to act like that. esp when the teacher doesnt behave like one.
some just dont deserve respect lo =)
anyway if she had to serve detention i would go for it too.
the stomachache subsided a little. until aft sch. was just before amaths test and it was like fuck.
hurt damn lot :(
at least it didnt affect the test. bt doubt i would do well lo.
didnt study for factor theorum which i was naturally weak at. so yea. gone le.
im tired. sacrifised some sleep yest to complete this skin. love this song loads =)
napok sung the intro of the song today and it was abit out of tune. he's damn lame lah.
i seriously suspect he stalks me since he reads my posts like in less than 10mins aft i've posted it and he knew the time when i changed the skin yest. HAHA.
i mentioned your name leh napok=D
brala went for tamil cls today to see my dasao=D
oh yeah. dasao dasao dasao. im damn desperate. i said i would knock his head if he couldnt get her within 5mnths.
i think its possible to get lo since im the mastermind helping him and telling him what to do. he lan lah =)
okay. time to do the three journals that was expected to be in today. HAHA.
PERFECT-SIMPLE PLAN.
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
QING TIAN-JAY.
got to study bionomial theorum alone since zy is busy with her relative's wedding and wouldnt be at home :/
here are some pics frm yest. time for lunch :]
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can you see my perspective?
In front of the person you love,
winter seems like spring.
But in front of the person you like,
winter just seems like a beautiful
winter.
If you look into the eyes of the one
you love, you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the
one you like, you smile.
In front of the person you love, you
can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you like,
you can.
In front of the person you love, you
tend to get shy
But in front of the person you like,
you can show the real you.
The person you love, comes into your
mind every two minutes.
You can't look straight into the eyes
of the one you love.
But you can always smile into the eyes
of the one you like.
When the one you love is crying, you
cry with them.
But when the one you like is crying,
you end up comforting.
The feeling of love starts from the
eye
And the feeling of like starts from
the ear.
So, if you stop liking a person you
used to like,
all you need to do is cover your ears;
but if you try to close your eyes,
love turns into a drop of tear and
remains in your heart forever after.
it feels that way.
WU KE JIU YAO-PIN GUAN.
truth hurts.no doubt its a long day.
woke up super early for the flag day. yz wanted me to do with her so she wouldnt be alone so there i was.
tried hard nt to doze off=D
im so nice to her do with her lo.
in the morning the skies were dark and the song back at one by bryan mcknight accompanied me there.
its really nice to hear that song in the morning.
& you nv left my mind.
i wonder why i liked the morning. nt much ppl were ard and somehow its as if the the place is all yours.
its a gd feeling to see the skies turn brighter.
rarely take mrts in the morning and ive noticed that in every 10 ppl i've seen in the morning, 8 of them sleep on the train. haha. i guess i was too bored.
then during the cip we slacked more than the time we went ard to get donations :]
sigh. i guess i'll pass the slacking bug to everybody. hahaha. yz merely wanted to shop abit& i bought lipgloss.
tiring though. tpy ppl aint generous :/
ate super lot lo. gt a scoop of mango swenson's icecream& mac food.
bt walked so much for her sake. its exercise.
she was trying to find some shoeshop and we walked ard the entire tpy central like 500times.
then it rained when it was abt time to go back. some ppl were trying to set up a stage thingy and it seemed really dangerous.
sometimes, is there really the need to risk it all for money?
yz is nice lah. i like her<3
took some pics of things ive seen here and there for today.
i went back hm for awhile aft the cip ended& watched a little tv before going to grandma's hse.
then we went to marina square. walked like forever bt i gt pmk clothes-_-
i actually managed s sizes. hahaha.
there was a print that i really liked bt guess it wasnt meant to be mine :(
zinger burger was supper.
im a little tired so i wouldnt try to recall all the details. my head hurts.
i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu :(
BREAKING THE HABIT-LINKIN PARK.
i aint in gd mood. i just felt like crushing cans, screaming, talking back at ppl for the whole damn day.
cant stand to sit down and everything.
i guess its alright once in awhile. maybe i just need to be alone for awhile:]
there's nothing wrong with me. really.
maybe ive started to dislike myself a little. it is what i've seen in your eyes.
somehow it feels that some ppl will choose to look at a direction that others all choose to look in. why follow?
dont give me that kinda look. dont you say im wrong when i've done no wrong.
dont you limit me to do all your shit. silent misunderstandings happen each and every day. why pretend you cant see it?
why choose to believe in lies when the truth's all there for you?
i just dont like to please ppl for the sake of getting more ppl to like me.
politically correct answer doesnt reflect what the person is inside.
hw many ppl really felt that way when they say it?
hw does one's appearances tell you who they are?
why is there the need to judge?
what makes you more superior to judge?
all these kept repeating in my mind today.
sometimes it makes me sick to see what some ppl do.
forget it. you'd get what i mean when u observe.
lessons were boring. hv been trying to avoid ow everywhere everytime.
i guess i hv been lucky today.
had this controller thing for emaths. super fun and its cute. i did a qn wrongly though :(
chem prac was fast. i did super fast.
just realised some ppl are nice :]
really nice. sometimes they are just misunderstood.
just realised some ppl are really shit inside.
i just hv to know who they are :]
i saw your change.
i wouldnt stop loving you.i dont like serene :(
i dont like hw the sch is like now :(
i guess they are merely trying to produce replicas of their idea of the "model student".
it wouldnt work trying to make everyone the same.
it wouldnt work on me, sorry.
dont try too hard lah. the students dont like& i might just get "defiant" :]
you test our patience like hw we test yours.
isnt it too much effort to change the perspective of the entire student body?
its really easier to try to change hw serene acts and thinks abt us than to make so many students change hw they act.
some ppl aint as bad as what she thinks anyway.
mushroom tan hweepin sucks :]
whoohoo. i am going to be a player of our infocomm future:D
go to: http://talent.singaporeinfocomm.sg
i exist for my dream.
ending off with the lyrics of
somesay by sum41.
Some say we're never meant to grow up
I'm sure they never knew enough
I know the pressures won't go away
It's too late
Find out the difference somehow
It's too late to even have faith
Don't think things will ever change
You must be dreaming
Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realise
I can do this on my own
And if I fall I'll take it all
It's so easy after all
Believe me 'cause now's the time to try
Don't wait, the chance will pass you by
Time's up to figure it out
You can't say it's too late
Seems like everything we knew
Turned out were never even true
Don't trust, things will never change
You must be dreaming
Some say we're better off without
Knowing what life is all about
I'm sure they'll never realise the way
It's too late
Somehow it's different everyday
In some ways it never fades away
Seems like it's never gonna change
I must be dreaming
Believe me, it's alright
It's so easy after all
Believe me, it's alright
It's so easy after all
QING TIAN-JAY.
cong qian cong qian, you ge ren ai ni hen jiu. dan pian pian yu jian jian, ba ju li chui de hao yuan.didnt spend much time in sch today cos we went for the zest competition at ngee ann poly.
first time i ate sch food since sch reopened lo. its still as nice :]
aft recess was like our free period to hv our lunch and do whatever we liked and we happened to be at the canteen.
mr chan was there.
then bra asked damn loud on purpose if i was going to ask for his num. he heard and the other two relief teachers heard too. wtf. haha. cant stand him.
i think they know alr.
zest was okay bt time passed super quick there. some performances were nice& it was courage that let a guy who couldnt sing well stand on stage and perform his piece.
the effort counts :]
met zy aft everything at ard 630 and we went back together:D
had pratas for dinner. omfg.<3
curry rocks. maybe im going for curry baked rice at pizza hut tmr lo.
okay, got to start typing the letter to drop bio now or else it wouldnt be ready for tmr.
although im nt by your side, bt i'd care.ps. i was caught by ms ow today bt thank god i didnt hv to cut my hair:D
*phew.
CHU MO-CHENWEILIAN.
i just realised it was a breakup song.
im here slacking again:D
ive done amaths though. looks like my work all kinda done. im really trying to be hardworking lo.
i'll ace next wk's amaths test. haha.
just thought i'll drop by with some pics that hv been inside my hp since some time ago.
my room.
the skies always look so beautiful.
there's nafa open hse and nyp open hse on 25th to 27th of the month. i think i'll drop by.
i hate to see you leave each time.
KUI LEI-MILK.
im back hm. today's warm :/
i need a bath soon.
maybe things are just all wrong& im just wasting time.im super guai today. did my chi hw that's due tmr during bio and its all done.
yawns. was abit tired in sch lo.
i thought of the game for the creative pe module in like 2mins. im uber smart. haha.
saw dy like another 500times today lo. its fate-_-
saw someone else on the bus. its fate.
saw the cute cher at the soccer court next to the cc. actually its nth much.
isit true that faith can make miracles?there's loads to be done lah. i cant be bothered with the rest so yea.
RU GUO AI-ZHANG XUE YOU.
im damn tired. just reached hm at 730 and ive bathed and done my hw:D
hv to type out my letter to drop bio. yawns.
if im tired i'll do it tmr then, i wanna slp early.
zy was with me. thanks for all the crap that made me laugh.
had cldds today so i missed the zest competition discussion. more like i thought it was 5mins only& it was okay to miss it so yea.
nvm. sorry i think cldds is more impt :]
supposed to search for some iras shit. they make it seem like the entire project is all abt them& their stuff bt as a matter of fact, i dont know what the fuck iras is and i really cant be bothered.
i'll do my part for the proj, dont worry& just dont go screaming right nw.
loads of things happened in sch today bt what's impt is that i really cant stand serene& hweepin. they really ought to look at matters at a diff light bcos i believe they hv no life.
get a life man.
sometimes it feels like the female dog barks the most. get my humour? :D
im recently into jecting ppl lo. i think i ought to join serene's debate team hor.
others said i've improved in the skills. haha.
i was damn hungry and my feet hurt with the running frm monday& we were supposed to do sit and stand exercises. its really wtf.
i think what they are doing is pointless lo.
and something really funny happened today.
i was under the grn umbrella at the table and jonathan lau came over.
we thought he was going to bend down and sit in bt he walked straight and banged into the umbrella. i was like HAHA.
its really stupid lah.
laughed till my stomach ached and probably the funniest shit i've ever seen in my entire "chong hwa" lifespan.
while waiting for co to end, happened to be with felicia (heng) and time sure flew.
saw dy for like 500times today. guess its fate. life is all abt fate.
im near screaming point for the cute teacher. i must be mad :]
maybe u might see me stalking him tmr. haha. im merely joking.
i could feel it. i know you can feel it too.
its wrong to think we are far apart.
suddenly i thought of this:
i fight for my dreams& i do what i like.
at least i know im living with no regrets.
CONG TAI PEI DAO BEI JING-SHI XIN HUI.
im starting to like a song that i find gross. damnit. i like the beats:D
i like the jing qing party part. lets all hv fun.
lets all laugh at our failures and sad stuff in the rain& dance with the music, bcos someone else cares even when u think they dont. trust this.cz's acting depressed like what i was in the past. oh damn. didnt know i was that hard to handle last time.
today was fine. the timetable had all the classes that i didnt mind going for so yea.
i dont like our new chi teacher. its like she didnt collect the hw i did bt when i dont do it so happens that she wants it in.
gt so exited before hist bcos the cute teacher was at 5n2 next door:D
he's really really so.. cute. hahaha.
feels gd to see him each time. i think im crushing on him lo.
i dropped my hp& mp3 player both tdy. glad they are working fine.
there was eng ssp aft sch bt i ended up finishing the work in 30mins. i guess im pretty pro. hahaha.
came back with jonathan lau again.
its nice to
tork cork:D
we missed getting caught in the rain oh yay.
hmm, i guess i hv to do some hw ltr :]
someday when we are free, we are going to visit pizza hut. the baked rice seems nice.
its amazing hw time flies.
HUAN RI XIAN-Z CHEN.
RU GUO AI-ZHANG XUE YOU.
what happened all feels like a dream that i dont wanna wake up from.
there's no wrong in loving someone. haha. so yeah. till the day im sick of it.
im nt sad or what& im nt going to cry for u. i know u wouldnt want that so dont worry.
there's the day aft tmr on channel 5 nw bt im trying to blog and watch. abit of multitasking to do.
went to jurong pt today. wasted my whole bloody aftnoon.
there's sch tmr ):
im suddenly reminded of serene's fuckface. damn. i hope i dont dream of her tonight. im feeling sorry for her husband.
its cold at 26degs bt i guess that's a gd temperature to sleep in.
i did my chi work and wrote abt the rain:D
im like being so guai lo.
okay. sometimes, some places, some bastards exist.
i hv alr identified one and there are actually still more. sigh. i feel sorry for the world.
dont let me know who the fuck you are im telling you, or else so sorry you are going to die in my hands.
AI DAO-FEI LUN HAI.
im supposed to be moody with all these shit happening right, bt so sorry im nt. hahaha.
wanted to watch supernatural yesterday bt again i fell asleep. think barely 10mins aft the show started.
went to zy's flagday today& i helped her so much lo. coins apart, i managed to get ppl to donate like 16bucks worth of notes:D
it didnt even take long to fill half her tin as compared to other ppl.
she was like saying i pro lo. i aint even getting cip hrs for this. next wk would be for us.
jy and i were keeping lookouts for cute guys. there's one really cute one& he's friendly bt i forgot to take his num ):
its a waste, its a waste, its a waste. haha.
i rmb he was in black jacket& yellow long shorts.
jonathan lau happened to be doing it today too& he talks really pervertic stuff ):
soab motherfucker. hahaha.
then zy decided to slack when we alr had alot of donations. so we went to walk ard& eat.
i must hv been the one who spreads the slacking bugs to everyone(:
then we went back to return the cans. she came over to my hse aft that, like finally. she hardly gets the chance to come over nowadays.
was at causeway point for the whole of the aftnoon& im tired nw.
i shall try to sleep early today(:
ilu, no matter what.PS. here's smth funny.
somehw looks like me.
has my face:D
XIN DONG-SHINO LIN.
this is today's horoscope:
The Bottom LineAccept the fact that for right now, you can't call all the shots. Bide your time.
In DetailThe forces around you are extremely active, and they are keeping you quite busy with tasks that you probably haven't chosen for yourself. Nevertheless, you shouldn't feel like you don't have any power over your life right now. You always have the power to accept -- and you should use it. Accept the fact that for right now, you can't call all the shots. But soon enough, that will all change. This is a day for biding your time and planning your next move.
woots. actually im in great mood today. the rain's still kinda nice, except that it gets heavy in the aftnoon.
as a matter of fact, lesson time seems to start flying. maybe its because i pay more attention=)
it feels gd to be nice; it feels nice to give.
today was one rainy day that i didnt get myself all wet unlike the other days.
there's a cute new teacher or trainee in sch:D
he is really.. so cute:D
hahaha. whoops sorry.
PS. go check out:
the girl who posted that comment herself looks like shit lo.
wtf. carrie is nice& pretty and i like her:D
WO WU SUO WEI-ZHANG HUI MEI.go listen to this song. i really feel the same way. haha.
there was abit of light drizzling this morning& i really felt it was beautiful. it made me really happy.
i dont know why. someone sung out my emotions, the weather was hw i felt inside. so yea. it feels light, like somehow the feeling has been temporarily taken away.
everyone else was busy today aft sch so i managed to get seowying's company. i really like this girl. she's sweet. talks alot crap too. she nv fails to make me laugh. thanks.
i felt like taking the bus to j8 for a movie alone bt there wasnt anyone to ask. she went ard asking ppl whom i didnt know for me. its like damn lame lah.
like as if i would wanna go with ppl i dont know& like as if they would wanna go with me. haha. yea.
the rain kept me in sch bt it still was raining when i left. sucks without any umbrella. just so fucked up.
i gotta endure the rain on my own.
its really okay i guess.
saw edison. glad he's doing fine. glad everyone else is doing fine.
sch is going okay. napok's really funny sometimes. bra& terence would gay together& all that shit. laughed alot with lynn too. they are nice ppl.
had lunch with ht. hadnt done that in very long.
sorry im being overly sentimental.
sorry if my being stubborn is nt a part of your plan. the time difference gave u away. i think i know u well enough nw.
maybe i've overestimated myself& you. i dont know.
you know smth?
when a rose is intact, it comes with the thorns.
when it wilts bcos of you& all that's left are the petals, the thorns are alr gone. its nt going to hurt u anymore.
the petals then allow the wind to carry it away, probably be gone forever.
guess its the most beautiful thing& it would be most carefree then.
the least i could do is to keep you in my heart, be it that you would think im stupid.
WU KE JIU YAO-PIN GUAN.
finally i made it back. didnt really had the intention to. just wanted to slack ard. then met jonathan lau.
ended up taking the same bus back aft awhile. its nice to talk abt meaningless stuff and laugh them off.
i gt myself a sketch bk. can draw during my free time& pen down my thoughts.
its hard to drag myself up each morning. getting harder and harder. the bed's my best friend. haha.
nvm. you wouldnt understand.
i reached my hand out knowing i might get hurt bt i dont get ur reply. nvm. its really nothing.
so what.
WU KE JIU YAO-PIN GUAN.
im tired. today's a long day. zy waited for me. thanks girl.
the amaths ssp dragged on. then cldds. its really boring.
smth cropped up yesterday. yea. hw nt done lah. told ms tan i'll drop bio. its fair trade off.
then will just take full chemistry.
i realised i had really bad dark eye circles. oh shit.
ytd bala listened to my whole load of shit. thanks bra.
it was really nice to sit on the temporary stage at the soccer court next to the cc.
i know you might hv felt awkward when i was crying& ppl all seemed to think u did smth to me.
sorry. thanks for enduring all that.
ytd night i knew i didnt put my trust in the wrong person.
i said i might be stupid bt i think you did it with gd intention.
i nv had so much faith in someone. i just wanted to try. if i was wrong, i would nv trust someone this way again.
thanks.
think of a tree that shields you when its sunny.
when it rains, no one wouldnt hv the thought to chop it off, just bcos there's the risk of being struck by lightning.
it still shields the rain for you.
pls tell me what happened.my mum was really nice over the issue. i told her i didnt feel gd and sch was fucked up although its the first wk.
thought she wouldnt understand bt guess i've underestimated her.
she sounded so nice over the phone today and still insisted on saying gd bye to me when i was leaving for sch.
thanks. she ought to know i love her.
okay i hv hw to do lah. i really feel pathatic sometimes. these are just small things that i always fail to do no matter hw i remind myself.
i brought the wrong fys today. oh fuck. sigh.
i need to try harder.
WU KE JIU YAO-PIN GUAN.
there was a sudden amaths ssp today. there's another one tmr and also cldds prac ):
i hate sch. i just want to slp at hm.
dont you know everytime u say that i can do it, it simply adds on to the stress lvl.
i cant help bt to doubt myself.
im sick of acting like i dont care. its nt that i dont, its just that im nt at liberty to care. so what if i cared, would it really make a difference?
WU KE JIU YAO -PIN GUAN.
im at hm:D
i tried to do some work today bt then i gave in to temptation& failed. haha.
so i went to zy's hse to slack. talked for the whole aft at the playground area. i like that:D
kinda in great mood.
wanted to stay up for underworld yesterday bt i fell asleep in the middle of the show with the tv on. woke up at 2plus and missed the 2nd half hr of it :/
sigh. does anyone hv the dvd?
tmr's brala's bday. so yea. happy bday girly. haha.
may u be successful into growing a tree of bras-_-
The Bottom LineExpressions of kindness will be blooming all around you as flowers do in spring.
In DetailIt might be too early for spring, but you should nevertheless get a real sense that something new is about to emerge from the drab landscape of your daily routine. Like a sweet little hopeful sapling, your attitude about where your life is going is climbing up toward the sky -- slowly but surely. Expressions of kindness will be blooming all around you as flowers do in spring. This day is an advanced look at the wonderful direction your life is going in.
noone else makes me feel that way except you, special one.
Back At One
by Brian Mcknight
Its undeniable that we should be together
Its unbelievable how I used to say that I found in her
The places you need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time, time will reveal
Yeah
One your like a dream come true
Two jus wanna be with you
Three girl its plain to see that your the only one for me
Four repeat steps one to three
Five make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe our work is done then I start Back at One(yeah)
So Incrediablethe way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know that its all about babe
And undesirablefor us to be apart
Never would of made it very far
Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart
Cause
One your like a dream come true
Two jus wanna be with you
Three girl its plain to seethat your the only one for me
Fourrepeat steps one to three
Five make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe our work is donethen I start Back at One
Say farewell to the dark nightI see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little childwhose life has jus begun
You came and reached into the light,
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line just in the Nick of Time
One your like a dream come true
Two jus wanna be with you
Three girl its plain to seethat your the only one for megirl and
Fourrepeat steps one to three
Five make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe our work is done then I start Back at One
I STILL BELIEVE-VIVIAN HSU& GARY CAO.
im back:D
the thing was kinda fun bt we only managed to get 8 ppl to join us.
its abit too little judging frm us spending so much time on a banner& printing over hundred flyers.
im nt so tired bt i'm going to stay at hm and go nowhere today:D
kyn owes me a treat. hahaha.
YI YAN WAN NIAN-SHE.
im back:D
today is another long day in sch& bt the banner's finally done.
did a presentation that's going to be shown tmr too.
there's a pile of hw to be done& i doubt they can be done soon. sigh.
there's still sch tmr lo.
its disappointing.
YI YAN WAN NIAN-SHE.
im bloody tired. no i mean im dead tired. gt cough all that shit. and it always rain at the damned time im going home. one day im going to die of sickness.
didnt really help paint much today. hv to continue tmr againnnnn :/
zhang laoshi couldnt make it to send us to bras basah complex because she had a meeting& gave us more money to take a cab there.
it was fifteen bucks going there& coming back lo. both drivers were overly talkative. yz& i both thought they were boliao:D
we took 2hours. abit too long huh. bought bala's present at a shop opened by john yeo's mum.
its a coincidence. we went in and that auntie went asking if we knew mr yeo. she's nice. no questions to where mr yeo's jovial personality came from.
there were loads of their pics there in the shop too.
there were a couple of shops there and had abit of difficulty trying to find everything. we forgot black paint. damn. too forgetful.
printed the flyers in the staff rm on red paper. zhang laoshi is damn nice bt sometimes its hard to locate her.
tried so hard today to make use of the memory i hv. at least i rmb smth& i know hw to do my binomial expansion hw.
who the fuck created this shit for us to do? so tedious.
at least i finished my hw for the day.
amaths hols hw damn hard. i feel that my brain is exploding. i give up:D
talked to ms tan sl during recess& she said it was possible for a bio-chem combined sci or taking full chemistry on its own.
i dont know what to choose. both seems gd. bt i still hv no idea.
i dont know if chem can be relied on. today's prac sucked. bt shawn was fun to sit next to.
i doubt if im chem material when im screwing every single detail. so what if zy is my gd friend when it doesnt even make a diff.
i went to count hw much l1r5 i could get frm the target setting& it was 9. actually nt bad. i'll try. i said i'll try.
we were saying less than 15. so 9 seems so little.
im so so tired. my legs feel like they are breaking :/
im going to sleep soon.
i dont wanna miss a thing-aerosmithI could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
YI YAN WAN NIAN-SHE.
okay third post of the day to say everything's okay.
flyer is done. duty roster done. oooh i feel damn productive.
tmr can rest le:D
i love the one& only pornhead. hahaha.
TIAN HUI-SHE.
i meant it that i would rather hv you made your point clear.im back hm like finally.
we were still doing that banner& we barely started painting yet. didnt know it would take so long.
bt guess its nice:D
who says cldds is slack? stop hving that impression over a bunch of slackers when they are only minority.
and that bunch is really fucked up.
met zy at the interchange and it was raining. my bag's all wet, gotta air it :/
loads to do these couple of days.
there's the duty roster i hv to plan.
there's the banner making tmr.
there's orientation flyer to be ready by tmr night.
there's sat's orientation.
next tues we would be receiving some damn eagles award. i dont know why the fuck im supposed to get it.
bt its free money. so yea.
so tired& in such bad mood ):
fuck the horoscope of the day is damn zhun.
The Bottom LineIt's a great day for predictions. Your insight is strong and your luck is stronger.
In DetailIt's a great day for making predictions -- your insight is strong and your ability to sense what is about to happen is even stronger. People should rely on you for news on what is coming up next in the worlds of fashion, music, television, comedy and books -- basically, you can forecast anything but the weather. Your connection with the arts is especially strong right now, in part because your creativity is looking for a new outlet. Seek one today, and you will find it.
WO MEN ZEN ME LE/YI YAN WAN NIAN -SHE.
im nw in sch. screw sch. you know i dont like it here ):
its for my own gd& for yours bt
why did u choose to give me the skies& leave me to soar alone?
i didnt wanna see you nt bcos of anything else bt i knew i wouldnt know hw to react or what to say in your face. so nw, what are we?
its merely 1st day& i hv to stay back for the orientation banner.
gt back my old seat. doing fine there.
gt the job of the cls secretary. wtf. there will be loads to do.
i hate responsibility like that.
lynn's on my right and bala infront. so yea. i think i can steal their brainpower a little.
i need to learn frm ppl like that.
i hv loads to learn bcos im nowhere there.
i dont know what a year it would be. maybe im really too pessimistic.
watched the skies turn bright this morning& it was really beautiful.
ivan lee is gone& nw the authorities suck.
when can i leave this damned place?
bcos i nv had the intention to walk back into the past& to face the same emotions again.
XIAO CHOU YU -SHOW LUO.
the prince of darkness had 3 sons -2 bad& 1 gd.
that day it was the time to assign 10 thousand years of reign& he thought that none of them would be up to the task, thus he decided to tell them that he would continue his reign.
the 2 sons who desired the power chose to go to earth& make it their hell. chaos happened on earth& the gd son was tasked to go to earth to get those 2 to return.
thats the outline of the movie little nicky shown yesterday night. its funny& cute. haha. watched american beauty too. it was kinda boring. i love movies:D
hv been sleeping late& waking up late recently.
my hair is still as short :/
here's smth funnybala says:
my mum full name is gayathri devi la
bala says:
den hor..
bala says:
my grandfaher name start with l mah
bala says:
so rite..
bala says:
we we get letters or wat rite..
bala says:
it will be like
bala says:
gayathri devil
bala says:
LOL
okay tmr is sch alr& we still dont feel that way.
isit me or what? i nv feel the sense of urgency for anything-_-
i wouldnt hv thought of wrapping my books if my mum didnt tell me to& i hvnt packed a single thing.
i still feel like sleeping. tonight's shall be a good one:D
there's no need to think why i love those ppl i love<3
BU XIANG RAN NI ZHI DAO-ZHOU HUI.
fate plays a part in every day& everything.
what if you missed that certain train/bus? maybe we could meet someone we have known or know someone new. this determines who we know, who we see& what we see. its just fate.
i will nv let those memories leave my mind because they mean so much to me
just like those ppl :]
i wanna see them again& we could still hv so much to talk.
life is gd enough nw because i hv you :]
hate this new skin of the moment& its really stupid.
bear with it for awhile,
maybe i will gt a happy bunny skin up ltr:D
updatemade this other new skin. love it loads. hahaha.
great to mark a new year=.=
