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agnes.
bala
ben
boonwee.
constance.
daryl.
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gekyin.
jacqueline.
kaiying.
kaiquan.
louis.
weisheng.
xuezhen.
yanzhen.
zhenying.

KAI SHI DONG LE -STEFANIE SUN.

okay i shall try to blog before i leave for tonight.
this blog will be dead for days lo.
but whatever.

bio reexam today.
felt so weird. felt so sad when i left.
wanted to hear a familiar voice, bt no one seemed to be there for that once.
screwed it up completely.
& i know i hv no more chances.

there's no turning back in everything.
i nv said i liked things to be this way. what we are nw, everything plays a part in it.
it wasnt up to us to decide what happens, cept to look at hw things unfold.
it then continues. no one can change that.
just suddenly felt that way.


tried to study ytd night. nth went in & i was in some bad mood.
forget it. i drew instead.

couldnt slp for the whole night. wonder why.
went to rewatch initial d to kill some time.
think i should be able to catch some slp on the coach tonight.


gone with the wind.

ZI LIAN -SHOW LUO.

im back. gt the books le.
no stocks for some though. ty s :)
the security guard wouldnt let me in when i wasnt in proper sch shoes. s helped me to go get them.
then while waiting, crapped with him lo. its like we were saying bad things abt thana. lalala.
haha. he really is bald and wears a wig. its true okay! wtf.
nw i know why he goes to every stall at the coffeeshops opp sch, which is to compare prices for the cheapest lo.
the uncle is nice to talk to=D

the grudge rocks rocks rocks.
i wanna watch the vcd.
ring& related sequals suck because they aint scary at all okay.
sadako sucks.
i found edison chen's friendster lo. wikipedia posted it there leh.
he's so cute he's so cute.
he's mine. i wish lah.

ponned bio reexam& rozi called me up this morning. so i cant skip it anymore lah.
hv to report tmr& do it with the physics ppl.
felt bad that she had to make extra arrangements lo when i told her i didnt wanna take le.
i hvnt studied leh. then i think its a waste of both our time to do it tmr. sigh.
i shall try to study smth tonight lah.
bt its still going to be a failing grade.
sad& gone case.

PERHAPS LOVE-GOONG OST.

im back for the day.
morning was chem reexam. erm, easier than any chem paper ive tried eg. eoys& everything.
i think i can pass=)
eh i think. haha.

then went back then out with zy.
it was coincidence we met on the train at the same segment.
i was the first she saw:)
then we traveled to marina bay, thinking marina square was there.
no wonder ppl were staring at me when i was on the phone with her saying we were going there for marina square.
two bloody retards. haha=D
sat frm there to cityhall where it really is at.
watched the grudge 2. we are a little too late. its probably the last slot of this movie here.
hmm. its comedy. laughed at loads of parts together can.
that female ghost hving a bad hair day and the plot is messy.
& tell her to stop being a bitch leh. hw dare she kill my edison chen.
i will revenge. hahaha.
the white kid rarely appears in this though. kinda sad.
those ppl next to us were so afraid that they werent willing to go to the toilet alone. wtf.
got so scary meh. some parts are really sadistic.
bought a black pmk top that doesnt hv the logo or what on it. its nice=)
and erm. christmas is coming=D
there were loads of christmas stuff there lo. im going to get ppl their pressies=D

we started packing for thurs alr. yay yay yay.
im looking forward to the day i wouldnt be bugged by some=D

its nice(:

YI LU XIANG BEI-JAY.

its raining again. wtf.
went to sch super early today. hard time getting out of bed. but bio reexam would be on wed.
got the dates mixed up. nw i dont even feel like going for it on wed.
spent entire morning outside with lena.
had prata=D
its so nice. haha.
i want to watch horror:(

NUAN NUAN-FISH LEONG.

im back=D
slept till 12 noon leh. felt good for once.
13hrs of slept. hahaha. longest ever.
wasnt intended. entire morning wasted.

read abit of comics then studied at zy's hse.
im so guai lo=D
tmr is bio reexam, tues would be chem.
i studied chem instead of bio.
guess it wouldnt matter hw i do for tmr's.
intend to study in the morning. see hw much i can do.
should i even go?-_-

i cant wait for the wkends. nicole would be coming too.
hvnt seen her for so long=D
miss her loads okay.

aiyoh, im dying nw. my mum's started it again.

TUI HOU-JAY.
tian kong hui de xiang ku guo.

the rain is making me think& miss.

i miss zy.
i miss cf.
i miss loads of stuff :/

mon& tues are going to kill me.
i wonder hw im gonna make myself study.

you shall remain our best kept secret.

BAI SE FENG CHE-JAY.

im back(:
m&m was today.
well, our performance was gd enough=)
bt its unfair when we dont get those portable mikes that eldds has >(
they acted like as if it was their own broadway show. like wtf?

we merely had one rehearsal before this today and fiona wasnt ard.
that lady overslept and it seemed the play could get screwed up if she didnt come when noone else knew her lines.
thank God she came^^
after the 1st reheasal was a long long break and alot of slacking.
we had an hour long lunch break. totally enjoying it.
they had so much more free time than me since i had to collect those unsold m&m tickets, the money collected & tally them all.
missed the nyaa briefing thus wasting more time before i could leave sch.
im so tired now.

but its fufiling to see everyone ard working to making smth a success.
its called a common goal=)


& more mistaking me and kyn as a couple-_-
sigh. i give up.

ps. dont attack my head anymore lah=D
ty.

pps. i miss zy=D

ppps. i wished there were more chiobus on that bus^^

FENG-JAY.

yay. msn worked=D
treasure it. hahaha. okay i sound stupid.

i forgot to say, i dreamt of the smile i wanted to see=)
that was ytd night.

camera's being charged. hope it gets to be used tmr=D

AI QING BU NENG ZUO BI JIAO-PIN GUAN.

im back.
today is nice too=DD

more talking to kyn. they really seem to think we are together now. damn funny.
1st reheasal wasnt good, bt we all tried for the 2nd=)
went kinda well.

aft that ended, went to bugis with renee.
that girl wants to get nicer clothes for her special event.
walao go my hse there gt direct bus also take cab.
someone is like so rich can._.
we combed bugis street for those slogan tees that she wanna find.
turns out that they were too small for her. then couldnt refund so she let me hv a tee.
ty dear=)
at least the walking werent to waste when she gt her denim skirt.
some other ppl are so lucky to hv other ppl put in effort for them=)
then we went to sch area to meet zy. its so nice=)

the guy working at samuel and kevin is cute nice and helpful=D
renee needed safety pins. then i went to ask frm him without saying she needed 2, bt he coincidentally gt 2 for us=)
saw 2 ppl who had tattoo on their middle finger. hvnt seen that before. its nice. hahaha.
that guy was one of them.


fuck. msn doesnt work again.
msn web messenger doesnt work and ebuddy isnt loading.
im bored. can someone teach me how to solve it?
forget it. i shall try and show bralalalalalalalalanodickkrishnan that girls can do tech stuff=D

SHI YI-FISH.

today is nice=)
im back finally.
went to the provision shop at zy's area to get lunch. cup noodles lo.
ended up spilling some. im so so clumsy. bt its cleaned=D
then went to central aft awhile.
szeting saw me. haha then she went like what happened to kyn-_-
the pharmacist at watsons say they dont sell sleeping pills over-the-counter.
i cant survive nights anymore. barely slept much ytd.
then went to zy's hse frm there.
she's still missed.

haha. its nice=)
im sure bralafunodickkrishnan missed me when i wasnt online=D



yay im extremely loved=D
the thought of you leaves me with a smile:)

XIN FU -FANG HAO WEN.

im dying! trying to blog here with this alien looking bug flying ard in my house.
its green, worm-like and IT FLIES. LOL.
God. save me. blast that bloody bug pls.

quite mistaken to be a couple with kyn today. damn lame.
apparently, we happened to be talking and eating together.
then left sch together too. zy who was with us thought we really did look like-_-
God. save me.

today damn nice. made alot crap^^
was on stage that platform with mike and went saying i wanna sack tan hweepin.
i wish i had that authority.
God, gimme that.

tmr is a free day. phew.
i wanna go to the bball court=)
i wanna see that person agn.
i wanna go to zy's hse.
i think im meeting e for lunch. at least look and nt eat.
need pass him the tickets too.

i cant wait for m&m to end and im going to make membership at the interchange comic book shop. that would be next wk.
hahaha. then i will hv my supply of comics^^

i cant wait to shop at kl=D

LONELY-BRITNEY.

im so tired :/
mum gave another lecture just now.
bt its okay now. eh after learning abt ionic and covalent compounds, i slacked a little and came up with this.


its kinda nice^^
will be in school for the whole afternoon tmr. sad :/

BAI SE FENG CHE-JAY.

some stuff are really insignificant.
if i dont care, u can take the cue that i really dont care.

my mum's nt working today.
so she's at home all day.
have to listen to all those she hv to say.
kill me. i was merely watching tv this morning, there she was interupting my show with all that.
its like the only wkday of this wk that im free leh. then its like all spoilt with her at home. cant do anything at all.
the animal planet's funniest animals aint even funny. wtf.
yesterday's episode on channel 5 was like so nice lah.
forget it. im nt in the right mood to blog anyway.


who are u to tell me what to do?

i almost screwed up my hp. now my msn is screwed up when i didnt do a thing.
lan comp -smashes this shit into 500 pieces-
was hacking my hp. supposed to be termed modding?._.
anyway changed the pic shown on the front scrn when the phone is flipped.
nw there's a skull instead of the motorolla pic.
think the main moto skin was accidentally deleted when its like the most impt part of this entire hp since it has the files for menu.
now its all back. the new skin works normally too=D
its really nice.
oh, im too pro. haha.
*phew. thought it spoilt or smth.
at least im sure ppl like bralanodickkrishnan will think differently of girls.
girls can do this kinda tech stuff also okay-_-
wished i had money to wrap my hp black. forget it.

i shall study tmr. i am going to study tmr.
and i hope my msn works. gd nite:)

PERHAPS LOVE -GOONG OST.

someone prank called my hse num ytd saying im pizza hut and everything.
damn funny. it turned out to be bralanodickkrishnan. LOL.
he called 3times leh. then still asked for the real pizza hut num. wtf.
and it nv sounded like him.

went to bed feeling kinda moody. most probably being tired and everything.
no more o lvls, so i doubt will be easy to get to see that person i wanna see :/
still cant slp well. as usual. but had the scariest nightmare ever.
i died in the dream-_-
shot by mrs tobias. lmao.
it was so real can.
guess what were my last words?
i love you mum. WTF. unbelievable-_-
i 'died' hugging her.

what a stupid and lame dream.
had bala in it too. he was spared by the gunman when they thought he was smart.
please lo, he where got smart-_-
had lena tiu too. forgot what happened to her.
HAHA-_-

okay i shall list out what im supposed to do for the next 2wks.
study for reexam as well as music & movement rehearsals will take up whole of next wk.
then reexams will come. then after 2days or so of slacking will be off to msia. seems all filled up.
i hope im ready to go=)

ps. nono, im not a lame girl okay-_-
i where gt so lame de. hahaha.

WO MEN XIAO SHI HOU -TANK.

im back frm cldds.
i love today^^
shhh i shall not say what happened on the 315bus when i was going there.
its my little secret. hahaha.
but i wanna see that person again=)
anyway there's a senior who took the same bus with me there and came back on the same bus.
such a coincidence^^

then over there time passed quickly. had games and everything.
so fun lo.
-wonders how dennis & napok knows abt it- =.=
forget it. hahaha.
im in great mood.

CHASING CARS -SNOW PATROL; AI MEI -RAINIE YANG.

today's weird. wonder why.
listened to all those old songs and everything.
stuff at the back of my mind used to be quite forgotten, now there seemed to be some rememberence.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

MO RI ZHI LIAN -ZCHEN; BACK AT ONE -BRYAN MCKNIGHT.

im back(:
had cldds today to my realisation ytd night.
damn, it rained when i was out. quite heavy too.
like always so suay de >(
had to take long routes so i wouldnt get wet. got mac food too.
there's still chem tmr in the morning. rain rain go away.
dont get me caught in another one =x
there's cldds on friday again.
look, there's sch for the remaining wkdays this wk :/
there's still reexams (2wks later) to prepare for & the m&m practices next wk.

life's so cruel. i merely had 2 days of fun & now there's 2 wks of stuffs coming up._.

i wasted my entire afternoon at zy's hse watching the butterfly effect and a jacky wu show.
the movie is nice and complex=D


whoops. where the hell is the pile of homework supposed to be done? XP

thYI ZHI DAO ZUI HOU -ENERGY.
dang yi qie jing guo, hai gen zhe ni de shi wo.
dang ni jue de shen me dou mei you,
bie wang ji wo de xin hai fang zai ni shou zhong.
dang yan lei liu guo, hai pei zhe ni de shi wo.
dang suo you ren zhuan guo tou,
bie wang le you wo hui ting ni yi zhi dao zui hou.

im still tired :/
spent the whole of ytd outside.
morning was bio spa. i think ive mentioned.
then went back for a change before going to meet cf.
it rained. got kinda wet so nw i aint feeling too good.
had headache the entire night.
from there we went to plaza sing :D
she was looking for pressies again. they dont hv much to choose so we went to vivo.
supposely candy empire would hv alot of candy that she could get-.-
went all the way there for it. bt its nice.
not much ppl as compared to the past. had so much fun at giant hypermarket lo.
then there was this ferry or smth selling boats. nice views up there.
and the toys at toys 'r' us are freaking dumb XD
its nice to be at somewhere where no one knows u.
went for bbq frm there. well, changi chalets look creepy. haha.
after the food came, it seemed ants-infested. gross lo.
the more abandoned buildings around look like as if they came frm horror movies themselves.
then a couple of us hid in the rooms for gossip XD
damn fun. bt had to go back.
we kept scaring each other on the way back.
was in pretty great mood for the whole day and wished it nv had to end :/

should i try to do homework today? ._.

MO RI ZHI LIAN -Z CHEN.
hei ye jiang lin, bie hai pa wo ai ni.

im back after bio spa :D
its easy lah as compared to the practices we did.
changed hp num since i switched plans. grrr. i wished i hadnt had to :/
used that num for damn long le.
bt again, new beginnings.
leave the past in the past.
meeting cf<3 ltr. woots. i cant wait:D

some nice horror movies are out, bt they are all either nc16 (colic) or r21 (texas chainsaw massacre: the beginning)
how depressing :/

holiday assignments

eng: commonwealth essay, comprehension
chi: 2essays, comprehension
emaths&amaths: full papers
bio: full paper (like i need to do-.-)

i think that's all.

dates to rmb

13th nov: bio spa, cf<3, class bbq
27th nov: reexam
28th nov: reexam


study study study. jiayou le :D
i love cf<3

YU TIAN -STEFANIE SUN.

damn. its cold for tonight :/
been out since 3pm. the rain sure gt heavy.
dad checked out the hps. found a model that he's interested in.
i want a hp too :/
the colour's fading for mine and the keypad's freaking dirty (i think).
wished i had the black version of this hp instead of this pink.
looking at it is grossing me out and it makes me sick. damn. its pink-.-"
-regrets-
had dinner at grandma's again. totally enjoyed the erm awesome tv programs the tv is broadcasting.
hey im being sacastic. like no nice programs there. literally wasting time.
we went to darwin's interior to check the quotation for reno works.
the place's nice can & i want a job there=D

so far so good.

MEI REN YU-VIVIAN HSU.

wo shi yi tiao mei ren yang de yu.
bei zhe zi you, mian wu biao qing.
cai se yan jing, shou shang de xin
zhi you kan dao hei bai de ni.

wo xiang yi tiao mei ren yang de yu.
wo de bei shang ni bu zai yi
shuo guo de hua piao guo lian jia.
wo wu fa hui qu yi xie chong xin zai lai.

i like the intro of this song. still feel very much for it.
some things nv change.

today is the last day of the term. woots. and it all ended. it feels different.
a sad kind of different. mixed feelings.
so much happened this year. i wonder hw i manage to end up here right now.
seems so impossible, bt its true.
too much unexpected stuffs. too many passersby.
well, it all ended.
im so tired, used to be so caught up with all these.
maybe the coming hols is when i can take mental break.

had chem prac again. missed half of recess. then i went up to class.
i could still feel it. zy felt it too.
it was tense in class. although it was empty then.
maybe the way im putting it wouldnt get it through to you.
she understands. she understands.
then she left leaving me there alone.
x walked past. i thought of the person whom x resembled.
kinda like a sudden moment of sadness, wanting to cry.
there's nothing im asking for cept to see your smile.
it doesnt hv to be me and you.
i dont want it to be me and you.
i dont want you.
i wished you are happy right now with her.
with that, i would feel good for you.
seeing you like that isnt what i want. i wished you knew.
some things just aint up to us to say.

she bu de, wo wei shen me shuo zai jian.
neng bu neng shou hui wo shuo de mei yi ju hua.
she bu de, wo wei shen me bu wang ji.
zuo yi tiao kuai le de mei ren yu.

so much time passed since then, bt i wonder why its hard to remove your name.
its not that i havent tried. nw i dont miss you the same way, bt u havent left my mind.
you aint a habit anymore. you are more than just that.
i know the feeling is for a friend.
someday i will grow out of it. i know.

bio prac was nice. ended alot earlier than expected. its nice walking alone.
feels different. my ears need a rest frm hearing ppl speak. we all talk junk anyway.
like all of a sudden im free from all that, can finally hear the breezes the buses and everything ard.
feels great.

ah i give up trying to recall what others happened today.
forget it.

s just called. some ppl are so thickskinned okay-_-
sigh. i died trying to talk to him.

okay nw its time for hexic.
& ive made up my mind to study hard for the next year^^
going to give 100% for all that, blogging here and hexic games.

WEI NI SI ME LU -EVONNE.
QIN AI DE -VIVIAN.

im back(:
its raining nw. still remember how it was like mnths ago with such a weather and at such a time.
im glad its over alr.

there isnt much happening today.
we werent much in our clsrm for our lessons. moved ard everywhere.
had to clear cupboard by tmr. lugged all those books back. at least i did some decent exercise XD

the zhonghua lv yuan book is out(:
woots -sense of accomplishment-
at least it was smth i spent time on. and ppl were holding copies of it.
feels good okay! :D

bio prac was same few food tests. did drawing today.
took longer than ever.

too lazy to think what happened today lah. at least it was nice.
my mind's shut off. hahaha.
there's homework for chi by tmr. damn. got to do it tonight.

bio prac clashes with cldds tmr. grrr. wonders which i will go for.
its still going to be a long day.
official spa is on monday.
its going to be packed, bt i get to see cf :D

dont you know u are very much like him?
u remind me.

was flipping through the new yearbook, looking at all the new faces in school.
it must have been nice for them. some pure innocent kids still in their world, dont know what's up for them to know and learn.
it made me think what's life going to be like time aft time aft time aft our time.
one day when we dont exist anymore, hw life would be like then.
that would be a long long time. i wished i could see it. im sure its gonna be nice.


im becoming more and more like you.

BAI SE FENG CHE-JAY.

im back(:
today was just as boring.
cant believe 1st 2 periods were emaths.
they took at least 1.5hrs together. thank god i had the pic on my table.
so far it worked. at least there's smth else to look at rather than pwb during his lessons.
i just dont like him. lalala.
was reading comics too. this one im holding on to is uber nice(:
getting the 2nd part tmr frm them.
nth much for a boring sch day.
acmm wasted lunch period. her lesson ended 1.20pm when we were hving bio spa at 1.30pm.
guess what. i had lunch in 10mins plus copied bio stuff. woots. im fast XD
broke the 3rd testtube during bio spa. hahaha. again.
some things nv change=)
gt back yearbook. it seems nicer this yr.
one more yr to grad=)
thanks for the concern. there isnt really much reason to care.
i dont need reasons to do what i deem fit. so dont ask for it=)

i dont care. i dont care. i dont care. i dont care.
i dont care. i dont care. i dont care. i dont care.

&ps. someone has just changed his name, so pls address him as: balanodickkrishnan. ty.

BAI SE FENG CHE -JAY.

im back for today.
didnt blog ytd, what a miracle.

forgot my keys so turned up at zy's hse.
it was nice talking to her.
and cip was really boring.
wished i hadnt had ears.
they talked too much. gimme a break.
was like forced to listen.
bt at least i managed to finish my part and left.
fingers hurting damn lot with the book binding.

dear was nice to wait. her co thing ended earlier so she was waiting outside for me.
treated me drink too.
i love my yun.
then she sent me down to my parents.
wonders why she's so sweet all of a sudden. haha.
we sound les=)

had to show them the report book.
they made a big fuss agn.
thought i did badly in the past, since i always gt scolded for report books.
turned out that the results of the past would be considered quite good.
she says no comp. bt its better than no hp anyway.
slept early, bt woke up like 3times through the night. rahhh :/
i had instant noodles this morning=)
lena tiu was jealous. hahaha.
today was boring. i drew smth new. yay.
can follow it up into a comic strip. its like a rabbit or smth.
i like it^^

there's smth awfully wrong with aw su. dont attitude my dear pls.
or else u would be in trouble=)
-stares-

im living each day as it is. literally.
i dont know what consequences the past brings, i dont care if i die tmr.
i dont feel for today.
it feels like im quite dead. pretty liveless.
experience nth cept strong emotions. either i feel nth, or i feel v v mad/sad/happy.

is there something wrong? i cant bring it out. ppl seem to think smth isnt right.

im just going to do what i like. regardless of how it turns out. in every sense.
it means nothing. i hv got nothing to lose, nothing to give.
nw its time to risk it to get me the thrill.

hi mofo.

YU TIAN-STEFANIE.

desktop startup is taking longer than ever.
mood nw's rotten due to what happened ever since i stepped out of house.
knew it would bcome like that aft sometime. the same prob with them.
mum says dad's in bad mood due to the whole reno thing. need more money mah.
he snapped at me when i was downstairs waiting for them to reach and was apparently smsing.
then when i gt into the car, they looked at me like i had done smth wrong.
mum scolded me for smsing, dad said they should throw my hp away.
made up lame excuse of calling them when i didnt see them to loosen things up.
bt agn, partially they wanted to rush to grandma's. didnt help in their mood.
was alr late then.
i was earlier than them so i thought it wouldnt hurt to kill time.
this time, to them im at fault again.
bt isit really do. they were the ones who were out late, nt me.
and supposely i get all the blame when i was downstairs earlier than them.
what shit.
mood when downhill on the car, bt didnt wanna sms to make things worse.
then over there in the lift, my mum went agn saying hw i ought to understand and save money and nt go out catch movies and everything.
gt kinda upset. its like yah i hv been doing so, bt im stretching my alr very tight allowance on these little things i want.
i didnt ask extra frm them.
that's why i hv been broke.
hv to save for 2wks to get enough for a movie outing okay. wtf.
and where's the money for new clothes?
skip meals for kicks and for money. its fun.
and they still think im in the wrong bcos im spending too much.
other ppl hv parents who would pay for all their shit.
i just dont like spending their money.
nvm. no matter what i say, they still cant change their mindsets.
i think one fine day if someone accuses me of stealing, they would believe them instead of me.
mum said i shouldnt use hp so much too.
i cant be calling on my house phone. aint it obvious i would get eavedropped?
so hp is the clear option when we talk personal stuffs.
biased mofos. & they seemed so sweet to my cousins and brother.
was talking to e the other day.
he rated his parents 7 out of 10.
i would give mine 5.5, which is a C.
grade C parents aint given the rights to scold their child for performing Cs in their academic grades.
im nt shit. i just aint like the typical person.
and i dont like to study.
i know i wouldnt be the next scientist/doctor/politician so there really isnt the need to keep harping on it.
dropped a big hint to them abt nt going to jc sometime ago. she ought to know.
and the whole financial thing, really isnt up to me.
i said i could help to pay bits of the reno. or at least earn my own allowance.
and she went like, hw much can ur little bit of money help. walao. nt money ah.
i still thought of helping lah. so nt appreciated.
if she's so fucking broke, then still gt money play mahjong ah. i hate it when ppl gamble.
still wanna change hp ah.
my dad still smokes. waste money on cigs when u are so poor hor. nb.
give me what shit attitude.

and dont think i dont know. i think my mum smokes too. just nt openly.
im nt a kid anymore. some stuffs no matter hw much they try to hide, i know it.
as parents they aint acting like role models anyway.
one day if i ever do smth wrong, its nt going to be my fault. get it?

an empty vessel makes the most noise. these ppl, pls know the limits.
the world needs more silence.

MU JI ZHE -YIDA.

dl initiated convos this recent few days, ranting on hw sad he feels bcos of her.
maybe it wasnt recent alr. it started long long ago. the same things he would say everytime, like hw she ignores him and he sounds like he could die.
its bad since his Os are coming.
told him long ago that it wasnt gd and to focus. bt he wouldnt listen.
i told him the facts that he turned blind to.
so nw i wasnt friendly to him when things turned out this way. he went to tell her that he really liked her.
bt guess it wasnt appriciated.
it was also bcos he's acting like its a big deal. its just a broken heart. so what?
u aint the only one who feels like that anyway. its nt up to you to make a fuss over it.
what can others do to help? practically nothing.
you acted like that no matter what we said.
you started it youself. its pretty one-sided. you need to know.
u can live without her. u know it very much yourself, stop denying.
nothing that we hv nw can last. even if u manage to get her, you would lose her agn.
its nt even a breakup. it had nv begun. i wished you'd understand.
if u think its really that bad, i wouldnt stop a wimp frm dying.
its time for u to focus, idiot.
i would personally kill you if you continue in your ways to waste your life.


i started a new blogskins account, putting up old skins that i used on my blog and didnt submitted.
they are up to a certain standard, guess its worth your viewing time.
http://blogskins.com/me/ELAINEwee:D
thanks. leave me a message there too.

im bored. tmr's sch agn. i cant wait.
didnt i mention i woke up at 430am ytd, thinking there was sch? wtf.
bt erm i think i like sch. haha.

in the middle of a hexic game. shall go play.
saving momo is a cute new game btw=)

i wouldnt let someone hv the last bit of what's left.

AI QING- AARON KWOK.

i hv a slight dislike for this transition point.
im nt a kid, bt im nt an adult.
i can think, bt i may be immature.
im moving on, yet i dont accept new stuff well.
i just found what i want, bt i cant proceed to get it.
again, im nt sure if its really what i want either.
there seem to be nth to be done, cept to look at hw things can go and let time take charge.
i dont wanna sit and wait. i wanna run to the end point right nw.
i dont wanna be a character of this story. i wanna be the one reading the bk, knowing what's up next.
this bit of undecisive isnt helping. its making me insecure abt what's coming up next.
its the fear of venturing into the unknown.
what's the future like?
im just not old enough.
i wish im like 70 now, with grandkids and looking back. im sure then i would be contented with all that life has to bring.
the crazy ups and the heart wrenching downs that are marked.

i just wanna do what i want and nt follow the crowd. if only u would understand.
i dont want to be u & i dont want u to be me.
everyone's one of a kind. so is there really any difference?

im pretty bored at hm. printed pics of fei lun hai.
im going to paste them on my table on monday. im sure i wouldnt be that bored during the last wk of lessons lo.
at least during emaths i can stare at the great looking guys than to look at mr poh. lalala. haha.
and since im going to hv so much time, it wouldnt hurt to make a new skin. maybe nt for me.
its nice being home alone. comp's all mine. loving it.
parents are out checking for renovation stuffs. we need one soon since tiles are cracking up.
blame it on the hdb for nt fixing it for us when we aint the 1st owners of this hse.
i see we need more money.
i want a holiday job. earn a little bit of cash, at least to pay for stuff i want on my own.
they dont hv so much to always fund my stuffs lo.
with this reno thing coming up, i doubt they will hv much to get me the much wanted laptop.
i shall try to get one by myself.
hw abt flyer distribution? i want at least to get paid at 5bucks/hr. im an efficient worker yea? its worth their money.
then can do full time for the entire hols. i dont mind wkend work too(:

i need to study aft next wk for reexam.
i will make it for chem:D
my mum still dunno my grades yet. wtf.
average of 56.9 isnt that bad in my opinion, bt still considered deproved.
guess she would be disappointed agn. i just need more time.
its nt sth u say today and ta-dah, u gt ur a1s tmr.
when i realised i wanted to study more for eoys, there was barely time left. blame it on myself and that attitude.
once a slacker, forever a slacker.

and i really enjoy the idea of dropping bio, which means i can openly slack or slp during her lessons and dont hv to listen to crap.
im sure lena would be distracted(:
that girl would hv to study hard when there's no one being the last behind her.
im alr nt paying attention during bio-phy sessions since i know my decision.

im taking too much and nt giving.

BAI SE HUN LI- XU ZHE PEI.

woots im finally back.
today was average. like usual. getting used to the new way of life nw.
new timetables the seats and ppl ard me.
at least i wouldnt walk into cls and go back to bala's seat.
canteen always nt opened in the morning so nw i know to get breakfast frm opp.
its called learning hw to be more flexible. haha.

lessons were slow today bt went pretty well. im glad=)

then had cldds. eh was boring bt it wasnt so bad since more ppl came.
went to toapayoh and j8 to get the clothes aft that.
hard to find bt eventually got nice ones. a grn tee and white shorts.

before cl started, i received some call frm a mofo.
that guy was like asking if i were a friend of s.
and thinking that it was one of his friends or smth, i said yes.
and he said his friend gt whacked by s and wanted to contact him.
god. cant stand his dumbness lah.
its nt nice to tell the whole world that ur stupid friend was whacked, showing hw lan his friend was.
since i was s's friend, isnt it obvious i wouldnt give his no to you without his permission right.
oh yah, i forgot he was a brainless mofo=)
then i hung up on his shit.
he merely dared to call once agn which obviously i wouldnt pick and he sent me some sms trying to get me to say.
v lame lah.
agn, its weird hw these ppl actually hv my no. wtf.
i dont go ard giving ppl that unless we hv been talking much online.
its clearly impossible that i talk to mofos online=)
i didnt give s mine initially bt somehw he gt it too-.-
weird weird weird.

enough abt all these. im back nw
and i cant cant cant wait for music and movement:D

things seem to be getting more and more normal, bt anything you do still affects me.

MORE HUMAN THEN HUMAN -WHITE ZOMBIE [COVENANT OST]

i love that movie.
today started off well. reached sch extremely early. like at 6.20am since my dad woke up early.
checked the movie slots at hm before coming and gt instant noodles frm 7-11.
sounds weird for breakfast, bt there aint much choice.
i know i would hv to skip breakfast if i were to choose the canteen over 7-11.
waited for zy since i was early.
maths started our day. it was okay. at least i wasnt that sleepy. still quite though.
eng ended early. hahaha:D woots.
had early break.
went to the secret eating area with lena and melissa.
then there came a weird auntie carrying her cute dog.
erm we were attracted by it la.
then it was cute too.
cant believe it liked me:D
kept licking me and everything.
i like it too. haha. its sweet.
hvnt liked anything this way for a long long time.


s asked me for lunch. bt this time things were so much better.
we joked and everything. it was nice(:
then i went to j8 with edmund & kw to catch the movie.
the covenant is very very nice:D
its like when i was watching, i gt into the movie and wasnt into anything else.
the intro was nice with the theme song more human than human and those videos.
i think im going to watch it agn(:
and steven strait is really cute.

he's caleb in the movie:D
wished such a person existed in real life lo.
then didnt really walk ard bt tried to see if they sell any of the stuffs im looking for.
back to sch area to look for zy and we went back tgt:D
my wallet's empty nw aft lending edmund cash. zzz. i need wait for my parents to get home.
they aint back yet lo =x

if i could only see you in my dreams, then i'd sleep forever.

ZEN YANG -PENNY DAI.

im hungry. rahh:/
skipped dinner agn. like for the past 3 days living on a packet of food aday nia.
whatever lah. no one will care=)

it pains me to see you like that.

SAY YOU LOVE ME -KELLYCHEN.

imboredimboredimbored. haha.
eh today took longer to pass. same timetable as ytd's and eng was extremely boring this time round.
cant deny its useful though.
after these few sessions, its possible to score so much higher in expositions which i am unfortunately weak at writing.
grps are supposed to present bt was kinda in bad mood.
so i told kenley to speak which he was really reluctant to.
i wonder what's wrong with him. nw i wished he wasnt sitting infront of me.
i dont like ppl messing with my stuff without permission and he is talking too much._.
and as the only guy in the grp he ought to at least go do smth la.
forget it.
i felt like i was wasting time in sch. all these extra lessons were like crap.
seriously i would rather stay at hm and study on my own.
lagging in emaths and amaths. need to catch up asap. at least i need to be able to see a pic and immediately know hw to do.
i cant believe we hv to keep seeing pwb in 1.5 hr long sessions.
kill me=x
he bores me in cls and i really cant resist the urge to sleep.
its like -yawns x infinity-
bt i intend to score for emaths since i dont like him.
the idea is to slack in his lessons then study on my own=)
anyway for eoy, i didnt wanna do any of those he gave, bt instead when online to print O lvls emaths paper to try.
its an unspeakable dislike for him=)
had cldds after sch. practically wasted time there.
they decided on the costumes alr.
at least it werent skirts we were expected to wear.
or else erm u know what will happen =x
so nw its going to be shorts-.-
wanted jeans bt turned out that those little juniors prefered shorts.
oh wells, shall be a nice senior and nt kaopei at their decision.
so i hv to go buy soon. initially thought of tmr. bt suddenly rmbed there's the covenant and crace crawford waiting for me.
hahaha. so cant go. maybe i can get the grn top tmr. a racerback is still better than spags since i dun wanna show anything extra-_-
i need more cash frm my mum. gotta hv to be thickskinned and ask frm her ltr.
so much for today. hahaha.

btw s isnt mad anymore. *phew=)