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30.9.06
PIAO YANG GUO HAI- SUN HO.
im back. all tired and everything. was at j8 in the morning with bala. shopped ard. just done with reading the new comic bk ive got. i love it. then went to victoria concert hall for the play. nt a bad one. absolutely worth the time. was raining when we just reached cityhall area. then yuning sheltered me with my umbrella(: hw nice. bt nevertheless, gt abit wet =/ kelmen was all petty and everything. sigh. dont wanna mention it. hvnt seen a guy like that. erm, is he even a guy? -.-"
But there will always be the one who will say Something bad to make them feel great People are all the same And we only get judged by what we do My personality reflects me And if I'm ugly then So are you _ Everybody talks bad about somebody And never realises how it affects somebody And you bet it won't be forgotten Envy is the only thing it could be Cos people are all the same And we only get judged by what we do My personality reflects me And if I'm ugly then So are you (: frm the song ugly.
im finally blogging. im slack(: back hm like long ago lo. bt when i gt the comp on, the only thing i would do was to watch lame vids frm youtube or play hexic. bejeweled made me bored. hard to play too. bt hexic is easier. loads more possibilities to the combinations. yayness. first time playing alr 8th on my msn list alr. shall go higher. will go higher. as for the vids, watched those pranks today. kinda lame. shared links btwn friends lo. like everyone's watching tgt=D nice. LOL. the song ugly is nice. rmbed what happened in pri sch. that girl who didnt like me. haha. she used to say bad things to me abt me. this song is so for her and for x. basically a boring day. gt our geog tys alr. emaths double period was a complete bore. like nth to do okay-.-" stayed back for amaths. mm. fun and we attempted harder qns. worth the time la(: morning totally sucked. the 1n1 guy was outside sch waiting for someone. then he saw me & followed me in-.-" like pretended to know me v well and walked next to me. then i saw jieying and kept sticking to their grp. bt that damned guy was like walking behind us. wtf._. and in the canteen we pretended nt to see him. and he saw us and came to our table. omfg. i feel so childish nw talking abt this. they are merely kids, but. im really disgusted by him, & i shouldnt do anything to kids right. and its meaningless to argue with them. nt a typical argument bt a childish one. i feel so unintellectual =x sigh. nw we hv another grp of ppl to get away frm. can someone tell him to keep himself away frm me? i wonder why im so suay to hv him stay near me =/ and he came up to me to say i was ugly. okay lo. ugly then ugly lo. hahaha. lalala-.- if im ugly, then so are u ;)
go watch http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aSXU7papvM http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQmylUle1Ck they're funny lo(: erm today passed quickly. we are getting a mark back for emaths. gt back eng new south wales paper. mrs raj told me i gt 37. 1st reaction was omg so low-.- her tone kinda sounded like she wasnt happy. bt turned out that the highest was 41 and loads of ppl werent scoring well. im gd enough(: yeah. so sleepy aft geog. think i fell asleep in cls. hahaha(: bio passed so quickly today. think i kinda know more abt the stuff today. pierced it aft sch. yepps. so much for today(:
DANG NI -CYNDI. wo xiang dui ni hao, ni cong lai bu zhi dao. wo xiang dui ni shuo, que hai pa dou shuo cuo.
im back hm. today was really boring. bt still down on luck. cut my finger and hurt my toe this morning =/ lessons were boring. gt back amaths which i failed by a mark. sigh. just too bad. saw dl during recess. like hvnt seen him much for some time. im becoming more like him lo. like our moods depend so much on someone else. it sucks. bio ssp tmr aft sch. i feel like giving it a miss =/ amaths ssp aft sch on fri also. practically the entire sat will be gone too. hv to watch some play. foul mood nw. lazy to blog.
if i were the girl of the past, would u like me better?
im back(: just reached lo. sigh. ss paper just average. spend like an hr on the sbq. left half an hr to slog my guts out for seq. damn. merger didnt come out and it was the one i spent most time studying-.-" wasted. did question 3. the one on the diplomacy. should hv studied that part la. could hv done better. sbq qn 1d was a page long for me. ahahaha. cool=D i ought to get l5/7m for that la. eng paper was just fine. spent the entire assembly doing surveys. i wrote there abt mr poh calling our cls 3e4. he did that alot of times before lo. and once he didnt correct himself, which really pissed me off. i wrote no mr poh pls(: pls, we arent ur goodie form cls ok?-.- when u come in for lessons, cant u just make the effort to even see what cls it is before stepping in? or u cant be bothered who we really are. and i dont think i need u as emaths teacher la. im nt arrogant bt its a fact that i dont do ur hw and i slack in cls (self admitted) and i gt 12 when my ans were all correct for a test i studied half an hr for?-.- in other words i know how to do what-.-" oh maybe im a genius. doesnt hurt to be abit bhb right?=DD im going to pierce my ear soon. one more on the right(: went to bugis aft sch alone to get kkw's pressie. that salesperson was ex-zhonghuarian=D he asked me if mdm lau still there nt. hahaha. mdm lau forever there de. she caught me for earrings prob this morning =/ she picked on 3e3 ytd's morning assembly when we were all nice. sigh. we hv a problem here._. nth much there interested me although i hvnt been there for quite long. erm for like 2 wks plus-.- v suay. the bus kinda met with accident la. nt a bad one. bt smth happened-.- then left for j8 on mrt. so bored there. i wanna engrave a ring frm silvera and wear in on black string=D i wanna pierce my right ear soon=DD i miss shannon jie=D ytd night was bad la. bt its over alr. balakrishnan, u better watch ur back=D u owe me a mil.
fuck. i feel damn sad ok? sigh. its like its really bad lah, i mean what that happened. are things this easy to salvage? sorry no cure one la. and lena still thinks its more impt to study nw. i mean where gt ppl like that one? wouldnt be in this mess nw if she didnt sent it ard lo. and she's like i need to study. sigh. these are what u call ppl. im so disappointed. like in myself and her. in them too. i hate myself =/
-entirely nt in the mood to study. i think i will cry in sch tmr.
the day before ss paper. my brother's bday. freaky. things took a turn today. to the bad side of course. sigh. can nv prevent it frm happening =/ its kinda our fault la. we shouldnt hv done that. i wonder if she knew what happened alr. we didnt talk to her for the whole of today. why did she look at me in such a manner? =/ i felt really bad. it gt obvious. and lena sent our thing to some other ppl. so in other words, it kinda circulated._. sigh. it was meant to be harmless fun that went out of hand.
and renee gt back her emaths paper with full marks. she said she didnt put the using sine rule thingy bt gt the marks. check with her tmr and i will talk to mr poh. speak of the devil. we always see him ard when we talk abt him. sigh.
zy's over here nw. she just started on ss today lo-.- like hw to cram everything in in such short time =/
im here trying hard to reach my highscore for bejeweled & listening to the song right here waiting. things dont seem to go well. the game always end so early =/ suddenly rmbed what ive said just mnths ago. was to lingling on msn. some stuff u just hv to wait for them to look up ur doorstep, nt go knocking every single door or find opportunities to get it. when its time to come, it will. so the thing is to sit back relax and wait.
An empty street, An empty house, A whole inside my heart. I'm all alone. The rooms are getting smaller. I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are. The days we had, The songs we sang together. Oh, yeah.
And oh, my love. I'm holding on forever. Reaching for a love that seems so far.
So, I say a little prayer. And hope my dreams will take me there. Where the skies are blue. To see you once again, My love. Over seas and coast to coast. Find the place I love the most. Where the fields are green. To see you once again, My love.
I try to read, I go to work, I'm laughin' with my friends. But I can't stop, To keep myself from thinking. Oh, no. I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are. The days we had, The songs we sang together. Oh, yeah.
And oh, my love. I'm holding on forever. Reaching for a love that seems so far.
To hold you in my arms. To promise you my love. To tell you from the heart, You're what I'm thinking of. I'm reaching for the love that seems so far.
Soooo, I say a little prayer. And hope my dreams will take me there. Where the skies are blue. To see you once again, My love. Over seas and coast to coast. Find the place I love the most. Where the fields are green. To see you once again, My love. I say a little prayer Dreams will take me there Where the skies are blue To see you once again Over seas and coast to coast To find the place I love the most. Where the fields are green. To see you once again, My love.
the song is sweet. hahaha. i feel like a typist nw. its like ive been sitting infront of my comp typing out all the SS notes i hv since morning when i woke up. and like the whole of ytd when i was at hm. bt since ive done it, it would be more worth it if i share my notes right. if u want a copy or smth just let me know lah(: did those chapts we need. one last and final chapt to go. kinda lazy to start. bt will do it eventually. look, nw im typing a blog post ._. im bored. & my florida's natural orange nuggets are all gone. sigh. i finished them all up ): would u get me new ones? lols.
was distracted aft watching some trailers. i wanna watch the haunted apartments. bt its nc16. lets wait for the vcd :D
and i do hope tmr comes soon. sch is definately less boring than this.
GAN BU GAN -LUO ZHI XIANG/ CAI HONG YAN LEI -SWEETY.
hahaha. hv been using the comp for v v long today. typed the longest notes ever. like 6pages on word. covered 3 chapts and the one on sg's merger had damn loads to cover. bt its worth it. bet my notes would be the nicest. bt if they can pass me is another matter(: bought the florida's natural orange nuggets ._. damn addicted. the box is sitting on the comp table and ive been popping a few ever since. its nice la(: found it hard to study this morning. hard to focus on writing notes agn. bt i had my old notes frm mid yr which i typed out. i believe i should be able to rmb. as for the remaining 3 chapts, they seem so recent. hv 30percent of those in my mind alr. and i know what's going on. at least i know. like we did that chem paper that day during acmm's lesson. nt that i left everything blank. and i kinda gt some correct too. im going to start mugging for chem aft the advanced papers end on tues. zzz. im tired frm looking at the scrn. and i hvnt been going out for v long =/ hv kkw's present to buy. will be sharing with zy. we know what to gt alr(:
im back(: lols. today has been gd. did eng paper one. was some magazine report. wrote like a whole page. quite alot judging that 4/7 of a page is alr like 500+ words. and we merely needed 250 at least. hahaha. like loads to write. and didnt even planned. they just came out(: as for the situational writing, did question 2 which was abt teenagers being too obsessed with reality tv. 525 words leh. i guess its nt bad for me too(: we gt back our emaths paper. mr poh deducted 3 marks out of 15 to give me 12. which i highly doubt i deserve since i had all the answers correct? merely left out 3 words: using sine rule, didnt draw a line that the question itself didnt specify we had to, and also nt correcting an ans to 3 sig fig. bt hey my ans were to 2 dec place which was obviously more accurate ._. i hate him. it was 20percent okay -.-" super wasted. rahhhhhhhh -.-" then we had amaths test. could prove only one out of the two functions. damn. had mental block =/ in between the free slot we had before the test, napok and jason were kissing -.-" was truly gay -.-" everyone went high and everything. was really funny. and i kinda really like my cls nw(: maybe i wouldnt want my seat back. it used to be so isolated there. went to mac aft sch with zy. renee came over ltr. kinda kept reminded of the past la. like the start of the yr, was there on the 1st day of sch with zy. it was really sweet. was really happy then. rarely gt the chance to be out with renee too. was really nice(: then we kept saying that zy likes gideon. hahaha. we took some pics. renee will send over when she's online. we all hv some probs with mr poh ._. it just so happens to be. bleahs. the wkends would be for ss. loads to rmb lo.
im back(: today seemed nice. didnt talked abt the stuff happening at all. lets focus on the present. hahahaha. mr poh's lesson was boring today. as usual. was half asleep since i only get 6hrs of sleep everyday. hmm. gt back eng test paper. gt merely 16. thought i could do better. its always the same content problem =/ pe was uber fun. adore it loads nw. was at opp aft sch. there was some lower sec girl who saw me and went into some weird state. like it was some big deal to see me or im foreign or smth. she recognised me frm doing blogskins okay -.-" am i that famous? ._. plus its damn long ago alr. leave the past in the past. wasnt expecting such at this time. lol. bt i think its nice XP looks like its going to rain lo =x
The Bottom Line
The status quo is not for you -- your natural urge will be to go against the grain.
In Detail
During the most serene parts of today, you may suddenly feel inspired to pop in your favorite CD and crank up the stereo full blast. The status quo is not for you today, and your natural urge will be to go against the grain ... so be prepared to get into small conflicts with people. Luckily, you'll be able to reach a compromise easily; no one's feathers will be ruffled for too long. Remember that doing whatever you want, whenever you want, is simply not possible -- for anyone.
Remember -- energy spent looking on the bright side of things is never wasted.
In Detail
Energy spent looking on the bright side of things is never wasted -- in fact, it can often be quite invigorating. A moping friend could use a lesson in this philosophy right now, so get in touch with them and hand out one or two optimistic messages. Consider inviting them out for a long lunch or early dinner ... something that will give the two of you plenty of time to talk. You can cheer anyone up with your humor and wit, so try to do just that today.
this song calms me down so much. like it loads. aha. so listless in sch today. did pe though. was hving loads of fun(: its nice to be under the sun. to let the breeze go past. and to look into the vast sky. its just nice sitting on the field. shall do that tmr too(: nw i so love pe. ahahaha. it wakes me up hor. nth else worth mentioning abt lessons. bt had the counseling thingy aft sch. its gd lo. she told me to hv schedules. like must do this at this time. at least it worked for today. and she thought my problems were complicated -.-" maybe im too used to these crap to find them complicating. or i cant be bothered anymore. hahaha. she thinks its gd that i hv a bunch of great friends who would watch out for me. yeah i thought so too. thanks. love these ppl la(: the thing with my mum is ok nw. she saw my ppr. and she didnt scold leh ._. she thought my emaths and amaths was exceeding her expectations. yeps. and she said she believe i could do better for the rest in the future. gd lo(: i learnt so much frm talking to her. i guess it isnt that bad. time for bejeweled. i cant really be bothered to blog anyway(:
BECAUSE OF YOU - KELLY CLARKSON. WO BU NAN GUO - STEFANIE SUN.
The Bottom Line Get some time by yourself today to conserve your energy and build your stamina. In Detail Does an approaching date or event have you nervous? There's no need to worry about your performance -- you're clearly entering rock-star territory, and folks are eager to see what you have to offer. They're more supportive than critical, though -- so expect a huge round of applause. Your performance won't disappoint, and the buzz will start. To keep the pressure from getting to you, grab some time by yourself today to conserve your energy and build your stamina.
today was obviously an ok day until someone spoilt it =/ felt so tired through the whole day la. tired and hungry. wondered why. hahaha. damn focus during amaths okay -.- like perfecting my graph sketches. ahahaha(: was paying attention during emaths too okay -.-" mr poh leh. lol. he overheard zy saying that he sucked, agn. hahaha. omg lo and i hv nth got to do with it 0:) after sch we met that 1n1 guy. the one whom we found annoying lo. guess what. he asked that question agn. alot of really stupid questions. thought it was childish to even talk to him. and he asked that question =/ the wtf question. dont ask me that anymore okay. i dont know what will happen when i get worked up -.-"
i had a talk with my mum yesterday. guess its better nw. alot better. i kinda told her loads of stuff that i thought i would nv say. yeps. counseling session tmr. lol.
Deal with the people who are in your presence today ... someone wants to connect.
In Detail
Sometimes, when your head is stuck in the past or flying on fast-forward into the future, you miss out on all of the amazing things right in front of you. Deal with the people, places and things that are in your present today. Someone wants to make a deeper connection with you, but they can't get your attention long enough to make any inroads. So slow down today and let conversations drag on ... keep talking and sharing, and you'll keep encouraging a very cool person.
eh. im back hm nw. today was okay. mmm.. no hp -.-" gt to talk to cf ytd. it was really nice. felt better. i know she loves me(: kinda tired in sch. yeps. bt it was still better. had a talk with ft this afternoon. felt better aft saying some stuff out la. sigh. its time to study.
btw, updated my friendster profile. go and read lo(:
ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID LYRICS
Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, This is not enough, Enough... I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost, I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost, If I'm asking for help it's only because, Being with you has opened my eyes, Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise? I keep asking myself, wondering how. I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out. Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me, Nobody else so we can be free... Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, This is not enough... Allthethingsshesaid... And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed, And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed, They say it's my fault but I want her so much. Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain, Come in over my face, washing allthe shame. When they stop and stare - don't worry me. ‘Cause I'm feelin' for her what she's feeling for me. I can try to pret, I can try to forget, But it's driving me mad, going out of my head Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, This is not enough... Allthethingsshesaid... Mother looking at me, Tell me what do you see? Yes, I've lost my mind. Daddy lookin' at me, Will I ever be free? Have I crossed the line? Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, Allthethingsshesaid, Runnin' through my head... Allthethingsshesaid, This is not enough... Allthethingsshesaid...
hahaha. bala is suggesting counselling aft he knew what my mum said. gd idea. LOL.
it took me so hard to convince myself it was ok to cry. the tears couldnt hold themselves back much longer. bt there werent any shoulders to cry on. they didnt give a freaking damn. yet those who cared cant be there forever next to me. i seem to hv lost my sense of emotions. like what to be happy abt, or to even feel. its really blank nw. i wish tmr will be a better day.
felt better aft listening to a nice song like this one. my eyes still hurt and everything. its hard to see. i really wanted to talk to her. she wouldnt listen. she wouldnt understand. i told her i didnt hv the motivation to study, which was the truth, because i didnt know what was at the end of the road. like what im actually studying for. she was just going ard in circles. like hw studying is impt. and that i dont need to care what im studying for yet. just study. study study study. she wants me to study only because i would supposely end up with a job that pays enough to make me happy. bt im nt happy studying nw =/ she still justifies everything using what she knows. its still the same. its always like that. oh wells. i think i most probably need a shrink soon. and i hated her use of words. she doesnt know what im going through and wouldnt care to listen. badly wanted to hug her and cry and everything. there's still my pride holding me back.
she confiscated my hp. cries. nvm. i need some peace and quietness away from the sound i hear when i gt a message. i admit hv been messaging alot recently. she was pissed with it too. and i wouldnt hv to give a damn if she needs to contact me. its just a bad day. real bad. maybe i can secretly use it when she's nt looking. bleahs.
ps. v v sorry that my mum called u up. it sucked. and i dont know what the hell she said to you. just ignore it.
maybe it was the work of bottling up everything. suddenly i felt all hollow inside. it has always been, perhaps ive failed to notice. perhaps ive chosen to ignore and pretend. my legs are tired. hw much further can they take me? my soul's hurt. hw much does it take to heal it? my mind's empty. hw much does it take to fill it back?
i need reassurance. i need bearhugs. i need to be tucked into bed. i wish for someone to be next to me. i wish i hadnt felt the lonliness. i wish for a shoulder to lie on. i wish i hadnt had to hide anything.
suddenly i felt lost. what am i here for? why am i here? where do i belong? who do i belong to? there are no answers.
i seem to hv lost passion for loads of stuff. lost any motivation to study or smth. and hm alr feels merely like a place to slp in, and nth else.
new highscore for bejeweled- 33455. bala's nw is another 5000 ahead of me. and frm then till nw, i hv had 22 games. ahahaha. sigh. shall pull myself off the comp & go bathe nw. wish i wouldnt hv to stop. damn addicted.
SUO YI -SLY. wo zhi hao ba wo xiang shuo de hua dou fang zai xin li, yin wei wo zhi xiang yao ni gao xing.
The Bottom Line
Get with friends -- share some laughs and try not to take life too seriously.
In Detail
As soon as you wake up this morning, you should look at yourself in the mirror and start a little pep talk. Disturbing dreams, recent setbacks and an overall feeling of listlessness might send you into a temporary blue period today. To shake it, remind yourself that you have abilities no one else has. If you can't convince yourself, call your personal cheerleader -- you know who it's. Get together and share some laughs with friends. Try not to take things too seriously.
bala told me more stuff. maybe it was really worth it. to think i wanted to focus on the gd side. to think i thought someone was worth everything. turns out to be crap. all crap. to think i wanted to believe. to think i believed. i guess u went too far.
maybe someday when i cant take it anymore, i'll tell you what happened. i wrote an essay the other day abt it and cat thought it was one of my bests -.-" went to the new bishan library today. its new. nice design there. jonathan lau yuning yunjie and ht were there. we gt a little noisy(: noone in the mood after ht arrived lo. ahahaha a bunch of slackers._. kinda had fun with them. cooked up more crap lo. saw jiahui's sis. she v cute(: shall stop here for today. im in no mood to blog.
playing bejeweled nw. kinda addicted. i need daily dose to slp. and practice makes perfect. nw i gt 5digit scores. ahahaha. highest being 24845. higher than bala's. yayness(:
Take things slow and use charm, not force, to lure someone out of their shell.
In Detail
Are you feeling a growing sense of responsibility toward someone new? Be careful about acting on these feelings right now, because you don't really know who you're dealing with yet. You might step over a boundary without realizing it, and it's very important to respect the personal boundaries other people have established. Don't push anyone to do something they seem reluctant about. Take things slowly, and use your charm to lure someone out of their shell.
woots. im back hm aft PULSE. nice movie. horror okay. and i watched it alone(: nt too scary bt the plot was nice. remake of the jap movie kairo. maybe i should watch the original(: the leads are nice. one very pretty girl and one hot guy(: nice match. hahaha. eye candies. animations and stuff were gd too. started off with a scary scene alr. hw cool(: totally worth the 8bucks(: bt those ppl ard me were interupting lo. this inconsiderate couple kept talking. thought older peeps ought to behave like they are old -.-" looks like immature ppl still lurk ard. ahah. today's a cold day. yepps. nth much happened in sch. bt paid loads of attention today. during emaths we watched a lame sushi video that mr poh showed us. damn funny lo. finally, there's smth i like abt him. at least we gt to end earlier(: then had lunch in sch. kinda stuck there for lunch since it was raining. no choice. the food sucked kay. the noodles felt elastic -.-" was at j8 after sch looking for a suitable belated pressie for ky. matched a pendant and gt a necklace for her. liked the shoe pendant. pretty(: and gt some earrings. suddenly damn interested in this kinda thing. wanted to get a ring and hv my name engraved on it. maybe next time(: felt the urge to pierce another one. maybe tmr, if the urge doesnt subside(: will be studing tmr with the rest at bishan lib. kiasu ppl like yuning suggested going damn early to grab seats. hahaha. so hv to wake up early lo. bt nvm(: yuning can use mei nan ji to ask the girls to move aside. hahaha jk -.-" need to drag amaths chem and my ss there. they are all weak in amaths then we can discuss. as for chem, jon lau can teach me. ahaha. too bad zy isnt going to be ard. her chem and amaths are the strongest hor. she's pro(: 2days break. u call it. bt its time to study. rahh.
The disappointments you may encounter today are not something you can change.
In Detail
Release your expectations for this day -- you'll go much further if you keep your mind open to any and all possibilities. The person you want to forge a deeper connection with might be in a bad mood, feeling under the weather or distracted by other issues. You can't control their state of mind, so if things don't gel, you'll have to wait for a better day. Don't beat yourself up about it ... the disappointments you encounter today are not something you can change.
WO YAO DE AI - PENNY DAI. DI XIN YING LI -JERRY YAN.
today is old lao shi's last day with us. sad. will resume the boring lessons next wk. had a nice girl talk today during pe. was with madelyn and huimin. talking abt ppl we liked(: we had to change seats today. cant stay at my fave spot anymore. sigh ): no more slacking seat =x really loved it there. loved the peeps. kenley and catherine and huimin and sometimes yemin. at least there's crap to laugh at. and we are quiet during lessons lo. bt whole cls had to change. maybe we can move back in the future when ft is happy with us. such a pity. i am really going to miss them. thankfully kenley and huimin are both seated next to yuenchi who is directly infront of me. nt too bad. rueylin's behind me. my table's still there. moving it to my new area tmr. lets look at it more positively. at least the new area is cooling lo. more cooling than sitting at the side. and i'll hv more ppl to talk to since we'll make friends with those sitting ard us (: and yemin is sitting right next to catherine right behind. okay behind ok. hw u know what they doing? bleahs. i shall tease her tmr(: nw im somewhere in the middle. zy says its gd fengshui for studies this yr to sit in the middle. ahahaha. hope so. gimme all the luck i can get :D since im near the front, shall pay more attention and be guai for a couple more weeks. ltr im going to do my chem wkbk(: during chem my hp vibrated. some person smsed ilu to me. turned out that someone else used their hp to anyhw send. ahahah. *phew. look. im back hm so early today. reached at like 3.15. my mum called me and told me to come back so that i can turn the tv on for my grandma who doesnt know hw to operate the cable tv box -.-" i rarely watch tv at hm too. bt glad im smart enough to know at least hw to turn it on. or else my gma would be bored to death here. its raining nw. bt at least i hv some company at hm huh. better than nth. and i shall play bejewelled. did that ytd night and i had a gd slp (: its gd to focus your mind too (:
i wish i can tell you that i miss u & i really do like you.
it feels out of place. maybe due to lack of slp and everything. the vehicles on the streets, the dim streetlights and the moving ppl. they make me dizzy. its like u wanna slp. bt when u lie on ur bed, u cant. what's home. it felt weird to be back hm. no one's here. its so empty. it felt so empty. nvm. i doubt u'll understand.
laughed alot during hcl today. bt was v hardworking. finished the work old lao shi assigned like v v quickly lo(: and obviously did put in effort lah. at least i like her lessons better than ms lea's. its always funny k. did smth damn ironic. since i started v v quickly like before anyone else gave a damn to start doing that work, she thought i hvnt read the passage for compre. so she told me to read. then i said i read alr. and she asked me did i read it at hm beforehand. and i said yes :p and she praised me lo. she praised me okay -.-" in actual fact i just skimmed through it and the bk i was holding on to was catherine's. mine was in the cupboard and i wasnt even bothered to take it out :p i left it in sch for like forever lah. dont even know where in the cupboard it is at. catherine knew everything mah. then she was like -.-" bleahs. bt i happen to know hw to do leh 0:) and i finished v early la. those ppl were like copying mine._. did rugby today during pe. was fun :D jogged and passed that thingy. love the peeps frm my grp lo. during double eng was in library for awhile. had this roald dahl quiz we were supposed to do. since so many ppl were crowding ard that area with the ans, we cooked up our very own ans. obviously they are v lame -.-" here are some worth mentioning: where did roald dahl write his books? (on a table) why does roald dahl nt like going to the cinema? (he was afraid of the dark) what was roald dahl's first book and in which yr it was written? (he wrote my first abcs when he was 4 yrs old) what was the name of mrs bixby's husband in "kiss kiss"? (MR BIXBY -.-") in "the hitchiker", what was the occupation of the hitchiker? (a hitchiker -.-") in "the landlady", what happened to all the tenants? (they died) in "james and the giant peach", what were james' aunt called? (the giant peach LOL) in "champions of the world", what was danny's father's secret? (that he was the champion of the world) kindly contributed by lena and i (: ppl like us wouldnt read his bks lo. ahahaha :p and i think charlie and the chocolate factory is horror. im damn scared of those little men in the musical who works in the chocolate factory. think they are creepy =/ old lao shi came in agn aft sch for the extra hcl lesson. and she let me off earlier than other peeps cos i told her i would hv to rush for cldds aft the eng test and needed to eat. hw nice(: im starting to like her. really. she sweet okay(: then the test. this time round it wasnt hard. hope i did well for it(: cldds was boring. she let us off early today lo. since so many ppl werent ard. its getting more and more slack here. and felicia(heng) said cldds would most probably close down like next yr when we are out of it. yeah i think so too. we hv v little lower sec ppl ard. so too bad._. nw im back hm. limiting half an hr of blogging time once i reach hm and half an hr of chatting time at night. yeah. time to focus and back to basics(: the studying and the crap.
YONG QI KOREAN VERSION - KANGTA&VANNESS. GET HIGH -FIR
The Bottom Line
Get comfortable with having less control over where your life is going right now.
In Detail
What you expected to be a major turning point might actually become somewhat of a minor blip on your radar screen today. Apparently, your expectations were growing too big. Don't get too disappointed about it, though ... everything is happening the way it needs to happen. You should get comfortable with having less control over where your life is going right now. Open your heart and relinquish some control over your future -- for the moment, at least.
a fresh term and positive starts. at least its what i believe in nw :) today was ok. had great mood to mention of. started the day with double chinese. and the old lao shi was funny. practically laughed at all she's saying :D then bio. i still paid attention. im guai k :) gt back ss papers today. gt 12. zy gt that too. oh well. i studied and gt this kinda grades. forget it =/ ce was nice. watched i nt stupid two agn. we are nearing the end of the movie alr and the parts we watched today were touching. catherine cried like siao -.-" ahahaha. shannon came over today. hahahaha cutie(: i managed to study abit of ss ytd. shall continue today. and also to explore the topic of proving identities -.-" practice makes perfect hor.
eoy goals eng a2 hcl a1 emaths a1 amaths a2 bio b3 chem c5 geog a2 ss b3 hist b3
back frm school :) today is kinda okay. typical day. considered typical alr -.-" gt back the papers for some subj. thought i did well enough for bio with 19/30. at least it was so much better than the previous test. ahaha eng too. gt 30/50. like higher than those ppl ard me. chem was borderline. forever weak in those calculations. i know i wouldnt ever end up a scientist :) hcl was borderline agn. guess what. i gt 50percent exactly for overall. it wouldnt be gd enough. failed geog lo. did really badly and was v v sad. studied for it yet failed it agn. like the same for the previous paper. then i thought, what if i needed to retest. in the worst case scenario. then i fail. so no more geog for next yr =/ forget it. i shall try hard for my eoy and nt be so pessimistic. was really perked up during bio cls. tried hard to pay attention. a relief teacher came in for hcl and i laughed real hard. her surname was ou which i didnt realise until we were to greet her when she left. and i immediately thought of old. get the link? nvm. i was alr bursting out in laughter then. and what she was saying was really no link. ahahaha. and no one opened their hcl books -.-" chem double period was fun. we did the displacement of metals practical. after school went to sgn shopping center with zy to get the uniforms. yay. totally new :) she gt a new set, while i gt 3 new tops. yepps. and we realised that the supplier of the sch unis had lengthen the skirts to an unbearable long length -.- lol. when i was walking back frm zy's hse, i saw these kindergarden kids with their teacher at the void deck playing. hw nice. to think of it, its actually a nice day. forget the bad parts of it. i shall nt stay online le. ss is more impt :)
oh yar. i saw tatty bear over at tampines. getting that for ky's bday. will be belated. sorry abt that =/ and i saw a pair of wedding bears. damn cute can. i think i wanna get that for myself :)
RANG SHI JIAN KAI KOU - Z CHEN. QI CHEN - FAN WEI QI.
tmr is the start of a new term. bet its going to be tiring waking up that early everyday. packed my stuff alr. i hope i did nt leave anything out *crosses fingers. will be up damn early tmr. like 5am? im always the earliest. ahaha :) my mum gt breakfast. so guess tmr shall spend my morning asking zy abt hw instead of eating. im sure she knows hw to do better than i do. and i shall find out where to get our uniform. im getting new tops asap. mine are yellow alr =X i wish i hv someone for company tmr. the sgn plaza or smth is really remote. i dont know hw to get there -.-"
i cant say im unaffected. still, it feels weird. nt sad, bt weird. km said what doesnt kill u make u stronger. its true. im stronger all this while. maybe i just cant get used to the fact yet. i asked for it anyway. a couple more days of allowance. then it'll be the past alr. and i really wish we are gd friends. nt just drift further and further until we are forget this part of our lives.
lets focus on work. or at least try to. and i really hope i wouldnt feel like slping in cls tmr. loads of stuff are easier said than done. i need to find the motivation that was gone. i need it back fast. at least let me know what's the end that im working for. im clueless nw.
i miss cf darling(: i miss all the great ppl in my life.
The Bottom Line It may be time to reconsider that opportunity you thought was off the table.
In Detail It may be time to reconsider that opportunity you thought was off the table -- because today, all signs point to it being put back on the table again. This time, it's going to be a lot more attractive of an option for you. The right answer is not terribly clear, because either way seems equally positive. You have some people in your life who have opinions about what they would do if they were in your shoes, but are you sure you want to know?
ahaha. today is really boring. woke up a little late. which was gd since i hadnt had enough slp for the whole wk. couldnt slp well lo. i dont take a special liking for saturday mornings. did abit of housework. then followed by some hw. then comp. my mum had a problem with me this morning. she went ranting hw different i was. and brought up a point that i squeeze the toothpaste tube differently frm they do. ahaha. and i didnt even notice hw i do it -.-" its gd that im different lo. bt that's always a problem to her. im always a problem to her lah ._. then we went to grandma's hse in a cab. omfg. the fare was ex lah. like 15bucks. hahas. eh cheryl introduced this movie titled carrie by stephen king. old movie. bt seems pretty cool.
ahaha. cant resist tempations to blog agn -.-" zy just came online.
somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: i go tell mr poh in his face i want to murder him - elaine" 私は愛する =0 says: really? somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: der - elaine" 私は愛する =0 says: then what he say? - elaine" 私は愛する =0 says: lol somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: he actually very happy somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: he over heard somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: and boom - elaine" 私は愛する =0 says: then bad mood? - elaine" 私は愛する =0 says: lol. somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: his face colour change - elaine" 私は愛する =0 says: OMFG. HAHA -.-" somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: i outisde classroom say one somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: then he overheard somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: who ask him somehow i feel like murdering someone... says: lol
The road ahead is full of mystery -- which is a lot more fun than a road you know.
In Detail
You're at the halfway point on a very special journey today, but you're in for a surprise. At a certain point, you may suddenly wonder whether or not you should turn around and head back the way you came or keep on going. After all, equal effort is required -- and equal reward is promised. There's no wrong decision to make, but keep in mind that the road ahead is full of mystery. And that's inherently a lot more fun than a road you know like the back of your hand.
TA HE TA DE GU SHI - ELVA. song lovelovelove this song. dont you see the story in it? :) lyrics.
went to lavander today to do the procedure for ic making. didnt know it would take this short of a time. was there rather early. they took my finger prints. ahaha their comp like so gd can? at least better than mine -.-" the people there were quite friendly too :) i woke up damn early. like 6.45? ._. was so so sleepy. wanted to slp more. bt didnt lah. since i needed to be there early so save the queue and also to meet them earlier in the slot they were comfortable with. i believe those ppl working at the building are damn hardworking. i mean they start work at 8am. and lavander isnt really near any hdb area or smth. had breakfast with my parents. like once in every 3 years? i can barely rmb the last time we really sat down for proper breakfast. then took the train frm the place my mum worked at to lavander lo. i reached central at 10am. ahaha. early huh :D but they were there alr. we didnt really do much today. so wasted. weisheng and dinesh happened to be ard too. bala is gay ._. he's compatible with bb. ahahaha. and yz thought this guy sitting near us was cute. ahahaha. yz cuter :) we saw more weird ppl. conclusion: sgoon has weird ppl -.-"
oh wells. 2 more days left of hols. which i think i really need to use for amaths. i forgot everything. yeah. really. even topics that i did well in for common tests, i forgot hw to do. so wasted. shall go revise. and planning to revise everyday when sch reopens. i really need it. i shall try and stop slacking -.-"
hit by the awful truth. ms lea says we might have to redo the cover because of resolution problems. wtf? its like you didnt make yourself clear in the start what. nw the resolution nt gd enough, then need redo? seriously, i dont give a damn lo. ask the publisher do can alr lah :) and my mum wasnt in her gd mood. then she kept taking out on me. pms lah._. took photos for ic just nw. that person there was weird. told me nt to smile too much for the photos. hey, its for ic what. or else frown ah ._. grrr. forget it. maybe the problem lies with me, nt them.
bala just scolded me for what i've said in the mass convo. the wapiang. who gives a damn abt maths remedial ._. ahaha. its mr poh we are talking abt okay. mr poh -.-"
freedom of speech okay. im always like that :) at least its the truth lo. im nt hiding my dislike for anyone :)
i went out today. ahaha. with zy. watched the host. its a cool show, nice and creative plot. even the monster doesnt look like any of those i've seen in other movies. bt some parts were lame lo. generally entertaining enough :) too bad the girl died in the end. she was protecting the little kid. very sweet. and the monster died. we grabbed a mango smootie each frm macafe on our way back. its heavenly can :) and we saw a pair of lesbians. ahahah. damn gross ._. they held hands on the streets. omgosh. on the bus ride back, we saw zhu lao shi. my chi teacher frm p6. ahaha. she like so concerned abt my studies ._. too embarassed to say they were in a mess. hahas. and a lady went onboard the same bus. judging frm her actions, she was most probably mental. rahh. singaporeans are going mad -.-" dont feel like mentioning what she did, bt it did freak us out. we gt off the bus opposite sch and walked to the interchange because we couldnt stand her behind us.
ahaha. i cant resist the urge to blog -.-" was chatting with bala ytd. its like we were talking abt this certain type of someone for awhile. these ppl live in the lies they've fabricated. no, im nt accusing anyone of being like that yet, since we arent them, and we absoulutely dont know the truth. just that most people are intolerant of such people. like why are they doing this and do they know that what they are doing may hurt others etc. bt im standing more to their side. i wonder why. its like despite what they have done, dont you think they must be pretty pathatic peeps to cant even control their emotions? and maybe they have gone through too much. gt hurt before. then they have decided to ease the pain, by passing it on. or they cant feel anything anymore. cant feel for others. depite the lies they have told, dont u think they must be feeling bad inside? yes, its a fact that they have been lying. bt it must be tiring to have to act for the whole day isnt it?
oh wells. i dont really know what im saying anyway and why i felt like standing up for them ._. maybe its the nasty peeps who cant tolerate them who are the ones who really hurt others. like hw insulting these ppl made it to be. are you any different frm whom you are insulting? maybe you are the one who made them this way. i just felt that they were pathatic.
grr.i still hv some drips and draps hw. shall complete them tmr. have plans for today alr. ahaha. im going out with zy :) weekends shall revise lah. the cosecant and everything, when ive learnt it.
ahaha. can i say smth? lovelovelovelove shannon jie (: hahas -.-"
i wonder what is happening. like time seemed to hv stretched. things that happened a month ago, seemed like ages. and what ive done just recently seemed like weeks ago.
feels weird. i want a new skin soon =/ and i feel like going to tp library. bt too lazy to go out. and im broke =/
imisscf. imisszy.
the holidays make me feel so useless when everyone else have stuff to attend while i slack at hm =/
just realised that things are getting kinda complicated. things to catch up with. things to do. and obviously the complications lah. if only everything would run smoothly and i can close one eye to it. sigh. maybe i ought to stop thinking of slacking and changing this laid back attitude for awhile. at least let me survive eoys mah ._.
rahh. i need to learn the dumb cosecant thingy soon. and i wish things can just clear themselves up.
my mood is good :) bt cant seem to stop slacking lo. i did emaths though. ahaha. at least smth la. smth is always better than nth :) i went out to get lunch just nw. it was damn funny. i gt scared by the butterflies. i saw 4 -.-" and over there at the shop, i was trying to ask a lady smth. then i wasnt paying attention mah. and when i turned my head, her face was right next to mine asking me what i wanted to ask. ahaha. i gt a shock okay. i hv a weak heart de ._. ahaha. i think its funny lo. hvnt felt so gd for v long :) was outside enjoying what the sunlight could give, the winds and everything. hw nice :) its going to be a gd week.
and i hv really nice friends. both my old buds and even my new friends whom ive just gt to know better. all so damn nice can :D i like them alot :) thanks for everything okay<3 hving loads of fun online everytime i come on. we crap alot :D
im meeting zy ltr. going to sch area to wait for her :D iwant iwant iwant to see her. ahahaha
i shall do hw today. ahaha. focus focus focus :D tonight then i shall make myself free for the cover. btw, snakes on a plane is a bad movie. bad plot i mean. bt if u need some entertainment and to get youself freaked out by snakes, maybe u'll like it. i couldnt be bothered to finish the show(:
homeworklisting(those that i even rmb). eng journal x2 speech x1 chi online hw x1 emaths paper x1 amaths qns frm tys bio wkbk?
If u haven't heard already, Steve Irwin (The Crocodile Hunter) died today on the 4th of September, on the Barrier Reef, near Cairns As a sign of respect for the Australian cultural icon, place a turtle ( tu ) at the start of ur msn name, and forward this 2 everyone u know Put a turtle ( tu ) infront of ur msn nick
OMG. steve irwin died. you know that guy? a stingray pierced through his heart. so frm today onwards, we shall eat stingrays. grrr. he rocks can.
A HARMLESS PODCAST - MR BROWN.=D DONT STOP - JOLIN.
the podcast was damn funny kaes. the mai hum song =D hahas. kiaweng sent me =D went to sch today lo. the project thingy took so long to settle. bt at least smth concrete is done. and we enjoyed the aircon and music while doing. had to arrange the compos. print out and arrange lo. printed loads and loads of them out. waste of ink =/ and ms lea found my cover design too dark for sale. so we are going to invert the colours agn and redo some parts :) ahas 2 more days till deadline for cover. zzz. need to use the comp agn. then went to bugis. cz waited 1.5hrs for me. omfg._. had yoshinoya food there. shopped ard. i got a necklace with the letter e. nt the nice and shiny kinda silver. i like it this way =) and i gt an ink bag. ahaha new bag for sch =) i saw this ipod nano thingy that was kinda cute. thought of getting for kiaweng. ahaha next time his bday coming then i go gt =)
tmr shall be hw day. ive realised im so behind time. esp when ive missed all that crap on the cosecant part. i know nth abt it. need to revise, do hw and study =XX and do the cover =/
oh yes. pls remind me to stop slacking if i chat with u online. thankyou.
i think the world is alr pretty meaningless. dont worry, im nt thinking of killing myself of what. this is just a little piece of my mind.
dont u think that everyday we are spending our lives in vain? its always the race to riches. these are what that changed the nature of man.
as a kid, we were given sweets to humour us. then we wanted more. it took a lollipop for the same effect. then a toy. then more toys.
as we grew up, it took more for contentment. it took more to make us happy. in teenage years, we want to look good. we crave for the latest bags, we want the newest handphones. we wanted to be popular. we wanted to be cool. we wanted loads of friends.
in mid 20s, we demand high pays. we get a new car. we climb up our career ladder. we get a fiance. we play office politics.
in mid 30s, we want to settle down and get married. we get a flat. we upgrade to a condo. then we get a bungalow. we keep a fat bankbook.
dont you think its too much? when its time u've realised its time to focus on other matters, such as the more impt things in life, u hv alr wasted so much of your time. and the time left would be too little for you, eg a few years before u die at age 60 frm overworking youself?
life, pls be more meaningful. i think we all can do better than this =)
i wonder why some ppl can take this very important thing so not seriously. the way they look at it, makes me wonder what exactly is it for. do they have the right to claim the use of it? do they really know what it is? do they have the right to talk abt it? i guess i hv changed my mind too. i would rather live without it than to fake through one. or at least, i know what ive said once stood true in the situation. and what i'll say, will still be true.
my mood is so much better. bt i had a dream. seems like what ive been thinking of during daytime will appear in it. ri you suo si, ye you suo meng. hahas. nt the first time le. im extremely hungry. and i feel like hving nuggets =/ waiting for yingzhen to come online so we can discuss the cover. left the finishing phrase to add in and we are ready to see ms lea tmr. and the cover is going to be so different frm those of the past :) I THINK I is a nice song. really.
hey ppl. nt that i blog too much. bt there are so much worth mentioning :) art of the devil 2 seems nice huh. bt since we cant watch it, its cool to see the trailer. nt for the faint hearted.
im back hm frm grandma's hse. so bored on the way back. saw suhan :) did i say that the cover is almost done. yeah. it is. after this and homework and revision, i shall plan for some fun :D mon's horror movie. thurs towning (ithink).
maybe if possible shall hit the beach. hvnt enjoyed life for a long long long time. my heart needs a rest frm all those panic attacks. hahaha.
its nice to go with the wind. bt at times, we are the ones who make ourselves too heavy to fly. food for thought :)
rahh. like cant stop blogging. after much consideration, we hv a new theme for the bk. ok. maybe nt a new theme. bt the cover idea changed into smth else. my back hurts frm sitting in the same position since morning. discussed with yingzhen :) cf says we can go to the new bishan library to study :D loveloveloveHER.
anyway i went to look through the files i hv in my computer. some were really old. like those pictures, songs etc. still rmb loads of the stuff. cant help bt to look back. like gt to know some ppl for really long alr. practically everything changed la. even a month ago seemed like ages ago. it was a long long year with much memories. actually many worth remembering. and its surprising that they are still in my mind, judging frm my bad memory.
sec one. i slacked that yr away. grades nt worth mentioning. nt much friends too. was close to HUITING since we came to zhss frm kcpps together. it wasnt hard to talk to her too :) then gt to know ZHIYUN, who happened to be index no.5 and me index no.6 end of sec one, gt to bcome closer friends with KAIYING. the drama camp la. we sticked tgt. so we became close. i will look back and think hw nice a person i was then. hahas unfortunately, im nt nice nw =/
sec two. gt to know more ppl ard sch. had more fun and everything. because of ZHIYUN, became friends with RENEE. because of KAIYING, gt to know DARYL. yeah. friends rawk. and loads of ppl in sch were nice :) the major quarrel with KAIYING. the problem i had with ZHIYUN.
sec three. the bad period. gt back with ky. gt to know zy alot better. she was v tolerating of me :) and we hv v gd mo qi nw :D new cls. more friends. some are great :D
yeps. i guess with this, i can say that this whole period hv been v enriching. hahaha. learnt alot frm alot of ppl. love them loads. never be replaced.
CHINGFANG-thanks for everything. u are the special one. ZHIYUN-thanks for tolerating my everything and ur shoulder. RENEE-thanks for all the fun. CHERYL-thanks for the listening ear. CATHERINE-thanks for neutral views. LENA-thanks for kneeing me -.-" HUITING-thanks for teaching me everything. SONIA-thanks for the friendship of 9yrs to date. KAIYING-thanks for the crapping. DARYL-thanks for everything. consider my advice pls. KANGMING-thanks for the advice and concern. EDISON-thanks for the happy times. ALVIN-thanks for being nice. KENLEY-thanks yaboo. BALA-thanks for the advice and nuggets. CHENGZHONG-thanks.
zhi xiang ai ni. wo xiang wo shen ming zhong, yi jing mei you yi han le.
ZUO YOU WEI NAN -XU ZHEN YING. GUI JI - ZHOU JIE LUN
grr. im nw handling the zh bk project. doing the cover nw. trying to do. its going to get tough. dont know hw to start. still hv abit of sore throat. my voice still weird, bt munching on chocolates alr. the ferrero rocher v tempting hor. so are the strawberry chocolates. hahaha. and i feel like sleeping. my dumbass brother is hatching a plan -he wants to kope my sweets. lols. and i wouldnt let him do it. they are all mine XD
can someone tell me what to do? can directions be clearer? then i wouldnt be zuo you wei nan le.
wo xiang yao ni de xing fu duo me xin ku wo men de ai shi fou mi lu wo xian zai cai ling wu you xie shi jian shi bu neng shu. wo xiang yao ni de bao hu qing shen he hu bu zai hu shi fou min xin ke ku zai xing guan can lan hou ni shi fou hui pei wo qu kan ri chu.
today we went to plaza sing. didnt gt to hit the arcade. i wanna play =/ bt was kinda nice shopping :) everyone was like at comex. didnt go. so bored lo. and tired. hols are coming. hope this wkend can pass soon. at least i'll be able to go out during the wkends next wk :)
i looked into the mirror. at myself. she changed alot. looked better, afterall. but she cant recognise herself. is that really her? gosh. i guess im going to lose it.
